Heart's Desire

chapter 10

“Where are we going??” I ask him out of curiosity.

“It’s a park” He replies his eyes focused on the road.

“It’s  almost midnight and we are going to a park” I laugh. He shrugs.

“It’s only nine and we need to talk so we need a quite place” I nod and stare out of the window. It’s dark out there not many people can be seen on the streets. When I thought harry would never talk to me again here I am back in his car.

Minutes later harry pulls the car over. I see that it’s a huge park I have never been here before. It’s a odd time to come to a park so it’s obvious that we’ll not have any company.

Harry walks to a bench I follow him. The only light visible is the street light. We finally sit on the bench I try to sit further away from harry.

“So…. “ he starts.

“So…..”  This is so awkward.

“Why did you beat up Tyler?” I ask calmly not looking at harry.

“I don’t like you being so close to him” He frowns I can’t help but smile.

“Harry he is just my friend” I simply say.

“How can you not see that he likes you grace?” he shakes his head and looks away.

“What??” I laugh what is he talking about?

“Anyways we didn’t come here to talk about him” he says. I decide to leave that topic for now. I nod.

“Did… you have a boyfriend when you were in Chicago ?” he stutters.

“Umm no”

“Why ??” he turns to me with surprised look on his face.

“I don’t know … all guys there used girls for sex so.. you know how teenage boys can be! ”

“Ohh “

“Did you have a girlfriend after I left??” I ask but I’m afraid to know the answer. I look away refusing to look at his face.

“No”  My heads shoots up in surprise. He smiles and moves a little closer to me.

“Why??” How can he not have a girlfriend? Or is he lying?

“Because I waited for you to come back” he whispers , I look at his eyes. He is so close to me. My heart is beating out of my chest. Harry grabs my arm and pulls me close to him. My hands find his hair, his hands on my back.

“I have always… waited for you” he whispers in my ears I can feel his breath on my neck. He plants small wet kisses on my neck and my eyes close shut. I moans as he kisses my collarbone and pull him closer by his neck causing his to lose his balance and fall into me. He is hovering over me my ,back pressed to the small bench. Seconds later his cold lips are pressed to mine. I can taste alcohol just like the last time. His soft lips are harshly moving on mine. This is the second time I am kissing him in one night. The kiss keeps getting hotter and hotter. One of his hands is holding my face and the other one is placed on my thighs. Our breathing is heavy but harry doesn’t break the kiss even for a second.

He moans when my small finger slides in his black t-shirt. I love that sound. Harry’s hands move  under my dress and I flinch as his cold finger meet my skin. I know what he wants to do next but I’m not ready. He needs to stop…. I need to stop.

I pull away breaking the kiss he gives me a puzzled look and I remove his hands from my thighs.

“We can’t …. “ I hope he understand what I wanted to say. He nods.

Harry helps me to sit up straight. I straiten my dress and stand on my feet.

“I want to go can we …leave now” I stutter.

I walk straight to the car not even waiting for harry. Harry starts the car and we both get inside he doesn’t say anything, doesn’t even on the radio. I can’t make out if he is angry or sorry.

“I am sorry I shouldn’t have… kissed you. I was caught off guard”  he says.

“It’s okay” I say looking out of the window.

“Grace seriously I am really sorry-“ he says and I turn my face towards him.

“Are you a virgin?” I can’t help but ask because of our little make-out session.

“What??” his eyes widen by my question.

“Answer me” I look into his eyes.

“Umm…. No but why are you asking?” shock can be clearly seen on my face. He said he never had a girlfriend then how can he..?

“But you said you didn’t date anyone other than me so how??” my voice is small. I can’t believe I am asking harry about this. But it’s like I don’t even know him now.

“Yea but once I went to a party with louis it was a senior party…… and there was this girl who.. I was drunk I wasn’t thinking….. we never talked again ever” he stutters. I can’t even look at him.

“You mean you had sex with some random girls” my tone is full of disgust.

“What? No well, not every day.. I just used to go to many parties with zayn and Louis-“  my house comes into view.

“Harry that is so disgusting and you have a excuse for this I can’t believe!!”

“Grace you are just trying to pick a fight with me”

“Pick a fight. It’s like I don’t even know you anymore!!” His eyes soften but it’s replaced with anger. He stops the car right in front of my house and I get out immediately not even wasting a second.

“Don’t you think I am supposed to be mad at you. You are lucky enough that I am even talking to you”  He shouts and follows me to my driveway.

“Well then I was wrong that I thought we can be friends again but I am not going to beg for your forgiveness harry not anymore!!!” I shout and suddenly my front door opens. My dad walks on on the porch followed by my mom. I look at harry and then at my parents.

“Grace what’s wrong?? Harry is that you??” my mom asks. My dad’s eyes are fixed on harry. I turn on my heels and walk towards the house.

“What are you wearing grace this is not the dress that you bought??” my mom asks and I when I am about to answer her “Grace get in!!! Now!” My dad yells , I flinch. He doesn’t look angry but disappointed.

I get in as fast as possible not looking back at harry. “Goodnight Mr. Williams” Harry says.

“Go home harry!” I hear my dad say as I walk straight to my bedroom. I close the door and change into some pajamas. Neither my mom nor my dad come to my room. So I decide to sleep I have not eaten anything just some snacks at the party. I don’t plan to go in the kitchen now I want to avoid my parents as much as I can. Tomorrows  Saturday no school so I guess I have to justify myself in the morning. I sigh. After tossing  and turning multiple times sleep comes to me.