The Boy

It became daily

We have been talking for around 2 weeks now. We started talking on a daily. Asking how the other one is doing or what they are doing. We started becoming online friends. Or that's what I thought at the time.

We talked night and day. It really didnt matter. We would talk tell the other one fell asleep or had to go. I loved talking to him. He always had a compliment for me and made me laugh. I don't think there was ever a time I didn't want to talk to him. He was just so perfect to me. I don't really know what I would do without him. To be honest, we were kind of flirting. It wasn't super obvious but we were and we weren't meaning to. It was just natural.

I would tell him he was cute, amazing, smart, kind, awesome, and so much more. In my eyes, he was perfect. The more feelings I got the more I would think. He still said distance mattered and he didn't want to date, but I never asked. Why would he bring it up if I didn't ask? Does he know I like him? Is he trying to tease me? I had no idea. I just wanted to be able to say that we together, but I couldn't. We were just talking... and only for two weeks. How could I already have feelings?

I kept repeating questions in my head. Why was I falling so hard for him? Why do I have feelings? He is older than me. Is this wrong? Should I try to lose feelings? Should I just stop talking? No, that's wrong and that would be torture for yourself. I still don't know what to do. Should I tell him I like him? Maybe even love him? Or should I just keep my mouth shut? I think thats best. Just stay quiet. Especially since he doesn't have feelings. It would make things weird. It is for the best.