dear up there,

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every night.

every single night, i find myself laying in my bed. wondering the same thing i did yesterday, and they day before, why am i here? why does my mere existence cause me so much pain?

but you don't answer. you won't answer.

where are you?

i desperately need you to know that they are getting stronger, and their taunting words are beginning overcome me.

but still i listen to their tempting voices, hoping one day that i will hear yours.

telling me you will help, that we have made it this far. that we do not have to scared of ourselves anymore.

but until then i will lay wide awake.

listening for a voice, the voice that is more potent than my own.

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