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oh, so you want a mind like mine?

it is not cute, it is not temporary

do not try to be this way

it feels like you are being pulled underwater, and you try to swim up but surface seems to get farther away,

like a pitch black room and you cannot find the door, and when you do

it is locked,

everyone around you is fine but you are dying and they cannot see

when you attempt to even get out bed but something inside does not let you, it will not let you

you can not enjoy anything because something in the back of your mind says you do not deserve it

that voice becomes louder at night

and you would want to do anything to make it stop but you cannot

you are not in control of your own mind

so you do things to yourself so you are in 'control'. it is not beautiful.

it is not, these words come from pain and sleepless nights

please darling, you do not want this.

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