You ruin everything

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(There homeschooled due to fame(Nessa is a YouTuber) her and the girls are still friends, parents left her and Carter the house,the boys and girls live with them)
I woke up and Jack was beside me. When did he get in here? I brushed my teeth and showered. I decided to fix breakfast for everyone. I was making eggs when I felt arms around me. I turned and saw Jack and he was kissing my neck.

 I turned and saw Jack and he was kissing my neck

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I don't mind him doing stuff like this now. "Morning Sexy" he said in a raspy voice. "Morning Raspy Voice" I say. He chuckles and sits on the counter behind me. I love his morning voice it doesn't go away until like 1. It's 9:35 right now. I finish the eggs and place them on plates. When I turn back a piece of bacon is gone. I look at Jack and he laughs. He has half the bacon in his mouth and the other out. I grab the piece that's sticking out and finish it off. Once breakfast is done I wake everyone up. We're all just talking and eating when I notice Cameron looks pale. "Cam you okay?" I ask putting my plate in the sink. He shakes his head no and I grab a thermometer out of the drawer. "Open" I say and place the stick under his tongue. It beeps and I take it out. "104.6! Up to bed please and thank you" I say. Fiona helps him up the stairs and everyone looks at me sideways. "What?!?" I ask not even looking at them. "How did you-?" Terra asks. "She wanted to be a doctor when she was little and started studying but changed her mind" Carter said. They all nod and Jack comes up behind me. "I think I have a fever,maybe you should come with me to bed" he whispers in my ear. He starts gently sucking on my earlobe. "Jack,stop Carter's gonna think something is going on and he'll stop it" I say turning around to face him.
He frowns and grabs my waist. "Who says we have to listen?" He whispered in my ear. "I-I umm..." I stutter. My eyes start tearing up and he strokes my face. I turn back around to do the dishes and he backs up a little. "Wow..okay" he said offended by my actions. He walked upstairs and I silently cried. I continued doing the dishes and started to have a panic attack. I run upstairs and into my bathroom. I lock the door and start cutting.
Once for being worthless
Twice for being unloved
Three times for bad decisions
I silently cry as the red liquid flows down my leg. I try to get up but fail. I scoot over to my shower and rinse the blood off. I put shorts back on and walk into my bedroom.
I hate myself.

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