New Girl

Sex

I woke up to Jack snoring softly beside me. I decided I want to lose my virginty today. I saw how much he cares about me yesterday and I think he deserves this. I went downstairs to fix us some breakfast when I hear him coming down the steps. "Morning" I say pecking his lips. "I'm going to Nash's new place,be back later" he said walking out the door. Well that was unusual. I decided to call him and ask what's up but he left his phone on the counter. I text Nash cause he's been gone for a couple hours.

He lied. Why though? I put in the password and he texted some girl this morning.

Oh he's a dead man! I was really considering letting him take my virginty! I'm so stupid. I have to tell Nash.

I set his phone down and just sat in the steps in front of the door. I'm home alone cause everyone went to San Diego for the weekend. He walked in the door in a sneaky way. He jumped when he saw me. "H-hey babe,how was your day?" He asked. "Eventful" I say in a monotone voice. He nods and asks "have you seen my phone I've been looking all day". "Are you sure that's what you were doing all day? Cause I recall you saying you were going to Nash's" I say standing up. He looks clueless. "Are you okay babe?" He asks putting his hands on my shoulder. "Get your filthy hands off me! No telling where they've been today!" I say walking to the kitchen. "Is there something going on here?" He says following. I hand him his phone. He try's to walk away and I stop him. "So how was she?" I ask staring at his back as he stops. "What do you mean?" He says not turning around. "I think you know exactly what I mean. You just want me to admit that I went through your phone and try to turn the blame on me! It's not gonna happen Jack so save yourself the trouble!" I yell. He turns around with his head down. "Well look who knows what I'm talking about now" I say lowering my voice. "You know I'm glad you have friends that don't try and back you up for stupid shit...friends that know how to tell the truth!" I say playing with my finger nails. "Who told?" He says still looking down. "Is that the point Jack? Is that gonna help the fact that you did what you did? That you said what you said?!? Huh!?!" I yell. He shakes his head no. "Then why the hell cant you stop asking?" I yell again. "I just wanna know why? Why did you do it? Could you have not waited?!? You said you were fine waiting! Well I guess that's another lie in our relationship huh?!? Is the I love you a lie too! Answer me! Answer me!!!" I basically scream. He looks away with a look of guilt. I blink back the tears and walk over to him. I stop right in front of him. He still refuses to look at me. "Jack,you know that I was about to make the worst decision tonight if I didn't look through your phone?!? If I didn't notice how odd you acted this morning?!? I would have lost my mother fucking virginty Jack! To a douche bag! Who never really cared about me! Who let his pathetic little hormones get in the way of his life! Well that would be sad to me if the person it happened to wasn't me!" I say pushing past him. I walk upstairs with him following. I walk into my room and into the bathroom. I pull out my blade and he finally talks. "VANESSA please! Don't! If I can have you neither can death Nessa please! I couldn't bare seeing you on that hospital bed because of me! Please!!!! PLEASE!!! I'm sorry! Fuck sorry,I mother fucking apologize to the power of infinity! I'm sorry that I let someone so stupid and worthless get in the way of the best thing I've ever had! PLEASE don't Nessa! PLEASE!" He pleads. But it's not enough. I stab myself in the stomach. I slowly slide down the wall and all I hear is Jack's pitiful screams and cry's. I can hear everything perfectly but my eyes are closed. I hear Jack call Nash and the guys. I hear Carter cussing him out. I hear the ambulance and sirens getting closer to the house. I never really realized how so many sounds can happen at once.