Changing Personalities

Chapter 5:

Okay so I'm finally up to chapter 5 and the new cover's by @self_destructive

She's really cool to talk to so you should message her haha

Anyway if you send a cover in i'll try my best to put it up at least once, leaving about a two or three day gap between them and well that's about it

Thanks so much for reading and I hope you like the chapter!

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The bus ride was over and Josh had already gotten off the bus which left him waiting outside the bus for me to show him the way to my house. Leah came off with me and decided to walk home instead so that she could spend a few more minutes with me which was cute but I knew it was just so that she could kiss me in front of Josh who she obviously thought was gay.

"Oh hey" He said as he quickly pivoted around, hands in his pockets and hair flicking around.

He smiled and watched us both jump off the bus -Well I jumped off but Leah carefully trotted down in her high heels- I went to walk over to him to apologise for Leah but she quickly grabbed my waist and held my face close to hers, pushing her forehead against mine. I started breathing heavily and fretting. I didn't like it when Leah kissed me. I felt as if every time she did, I was leading her on to thinking I liked her. Yet again she might now how everyone works nowadays and figured out that I really wasn't interested at all.

She pecked my lips and then tried to start one of her typical make-out sessions but I quickly pulled away and held her hand, leading her over to Josh who was still standing there trying not to watch.

"Sorry about that" I said as my voice cracked. "Leah maybe you should um...go home?"

With that she nodded her head and walked off, strutting her stuff down the street and texting her friends.

I gave a little smirk to Josh and he started laughing. I had a feeling he knew that I didn't like Leah and that the whole time he realised I was attempting to pull myself away from her but I didn't take things out of proportion.

"So that girl...Leah I think I heard?" He paused. "Is she your girl frie-"

"Girlfriend?" I interrupted. "Gosh no. I mean she wants to be as you could um kinda see but I don't go like that"

He looked down at the ground and grinned slightly, kicking the dirt as we walked back home.

"Oh okay, so you're gay or bi?" He blurted out.

Neither. Or at least I think. I wasn't really sure what I was. I talked to guys more and got a lot closer to them then I would with a girl but so far I hadn't felt like that over one. As for girls I wouldn't know. I hadn't had a girl friend until Leah decided to have a one-sided relationship with me but I had no attraction to her whatsoever. Maybe I'm just suppose to be forever alone.

"I honestly have no clue...I've never really thought about it. What about you? Did they get their labels right?"

"Their labels were spot on actually" He chuckled. "I'm gay for sure but I haven't had a boyfriend yet"

"Then how would you know?"

"I'm just attracted to guys more you know? I get along with them better than girls"

We didn't talk the rest of the way, just walked in silence and listened to the sound of the wind pass by. When we finally made it to my house we went into my room and just sat down on each side of the bed cross legged.

My room was average sized. It wasn't huge but it wasn't small and the colouring system made it look very dark. I had a big T.V that I bought with my birthday money from when I was ten-years old and that was probably the most used thing I had. I watched movies every night, especially medieval ones where they had the amazing melee weapon battles.

"So you must be pretty happy that the guys didn't hassle you eh?" He asked nervously.

That's right! Will and Ray didn't even say a word to me even though I'm sure they would have noticed I was there because Leah screamed out my name. Either that or they would have noticed because they saw a hot blonde they could hook up with. That was lucky! I wonder why they didn't do anything though. I mean, I'm happy they didn't do anything but it makes you wonder what made them decide not to. For all I know they could be out planning some mission to take us both out an shoot us. But I do doubt that either of them would do that. As tough as they make themselves seem, they'd have a lot of trouble hurting someone they knew was a friend.

"I never even noticed" I replied with.

"So why'd you ask me over?" He questioned as he combed his hand through his hair.

Now I had to think about it. Why did I invite him over? I hardly knew him and I just asked him to come over to my house which was rare for me to do. I don't like people seeing the place I live in, I don't want people to find out little things about me by just seeing my life style. If one saw my room they'd assume I was emo, if one saw my lounge room they'd think I was dirty and lazy, if one saw my kitchen they'd think I had O.C.D. They'd be pretty confused because each room in my house was different. Some clean, some messy, some just plain odd. But back to the topic of Josh. I still hadn't answered him and he was probably a bit weirded out as to why. He'd probably already come up with a thousand different ideas and trying to narrow them down while I was thinking of what to say.

I suppose I just kicked it off with him. I felt a spark and I felt like I could be myself around him. He made me smile and laugh, he made me let out the old me that no one use to like and he preferred that me. He accepted me for who I really was and that was what was amazing about him. If he were a girl then I wouldn't even hesitate to ask him out. Wait...ask him out? If he were a girl version of him? Do I have...feelings for him already?