i only feel the pain when im with others
pain stops me in my tracks
no one can stop the pain
but the pain stops me
i need to be alone when the pain hits
but i can never be alone again cause of what happened
i never had bad thoughts
just the ones that get me hurt
i know killing myself is not the answer
and i would never try to do it
well excepted that time i lost a really close to me
i didnt want her to be dead so i thought
if i died i could be with her once again
but i had to think of my mother
i know i couldnt leave her here to suffer
but i didnt want to suffer either
i was ready to except my fate
i was ready to die then
