About my life

Chapter 2

A/n its been a while hasn't it well I just want to say there is a trigger warning for depression and self harm this chapter was really hard to write but I don't want any of you guys to hurt yourself because of me and if you feel like hurting yourself please find someone to help whether it be family, friends, or a self harm/suicide hotline just please don't hurt yourself its not a good thing to do and it won't hurt trust me I know
Also if anyone ever needs to talk you can message me just please don't hurt yourself

So I for most of my life and lived with my dad and we used to live in Salem V.A. but in 2014 my dad got married to Cindy and we moved literally the day after school let out for summer break

It was really hard leaving my friends that I had since 1st grade but there was nothing I could do about it and I remember crying so much that I couldn't cry anymore

But we moved in to Cindy's house and I remember I spent pretty much the entire summer in my room because I didn't know anyone here and I didn't have anything to do so that's when I got addicted to watching YouTube

YouTube was something I could go on and all my sadness just went away and I just was in my little world where everything was happy

*Trigger warning*

But this didn't last very long because school was about to start and don't get me wrong 6th grade wasn't that bad (I did have one teacher that just hated me for no reason) but this is the time when my depression really formed

I had made some friends and I was happy at times but when I would get home I just really hated myself I wasn't happy and it got pretty bad I by this time had a vine account (yes I know it is dead there's no need to tell me) and I started to see these edits and they were about depression, self harm, and anxiety

Well that summer between 6 and 7th grade I self harmed for the first time

I remember I took apart a razor and I got the blade then I went to the bathroom and I cut myself

I did it on my wrist and I cut probably about 6 or 7 times I can't remember exactly but I remember that I said that after that I would never cut on my wrists because it was to noticeable and that I didn't want others to see

But my depression and self harm continued throughout 7th grade and I will make another chapter about that because some things changed in 7th grade

But I love you guys so much and so do a lot of other people buy be safe and I hope you all have a good week
~Laney