Have you ever felt like your life is just so messed up?
But you don't want to bother anyone because you fear that you will sound stupid?
Or that it is nonsense and shouldn't be brought up?
What do you do if you've had your heart broken for the first time and no one understands?
When you feel as if someone has taken your heart,
loved it with all the passion in the world,
then started mistreating, abusing it, killing it,
then they leave it there, in their shaddow; broken.
You kneel to collect all the pieces of your shattered heart,
but something stops you.
For your heart has betrayed you,
it had promised you to always be strong,
never let a guy ruin it's love for itself and you.
Why should you bother to collect the pieces of something that will be broken many times again?
You try to tell the one person you can trust with your life,
but they just don't care, they are unaware that you do need support.
They go on with their problems, as if nothing is wrong,
but you do not stop them, for you do not want to be a burden.
There's something in your heart that is telling you,
"Don't let go! Whatever you do, don't let go of them and everything you had."
For some reason, you choose to listen.
So there is this person,
that you completely dispise,
yet at the same time cannot get out of your head.
All of your memories replaying in your head,
every laugh.
Every smile.
Every tear.
Every hug.
Every sparkle of the eye.
Every skipped beat of the heart.
Every need.
Every want.
Every disire.
Every kiss.
Every sound.
Everything,
just spinning at your head,
every day.
You can't sleep,
you have no appitite,
you have not tears left,
you are a "dead man walking."
All your thinking is,
Does he love me?
Does he care?
Did he ever care?
Why does it hurt so bad?
Why do I care if he doesn't?
Why doesn't the pain go away.
Did he ever love me?
Was everything he said, a lie?
When will all my pain go away?
But, mostly all your thinking is, "why?"
That's the question only one person can answer,
and that one person,
was the reason it all started.
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So, I'm just curious..does anyone else ever feel like this? Have you ever? Vote or comment if you have.
-NaughtyAuti<3
