Hold me ((jamilton))

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TurtleLaurens2: Alright Hamilton slow down and explain it again

Alexander was in Jefferson's bathroom, struggling to keep his breathing steady. He had lied and said he just needed to take a shower. Now the water had been running for 5 minutes and he was on the verge of a panic attack that would destroy him like a hurricane. Tears rolled down his face as he shakily texted back.

BifuriousEveryday: I think Jefferson is my soulmate

Baguettesnshit: Monsiuer Hamilton, how do you know?

BifuriousEveryday: We're in his house. James was in the guest bedroom while we were in the living room. We almost kissed and he touched my soul mark without knowing. It burned and it was really hot I don't know.

BurrSirDer: Yeah, he's definitely your soul mate. When me and Theodosia met, that's what it felt like. A beautiful burning feeling in our marks. <3

BifuriousEveryday: BURR WHO INVITED YOU TO THIS CHAT!!!

TurtleLaurens2: He understands what its like to meet your soulmate. I invited him so he could help.

BifuriousEveryday: ...What if I'm afraid to confirm it?

BurrSirDer: We were afraid too. It's okay. Just come to terms with it. Me and Theodosia were scared as hell. She was engaged! But, it will work out in the end.

BifuriousEveryday: Okay... I'm gonna talk to Jefferson when James leaves for his job tomorrow.

Satisfiedaf: YEAH WIN YO MAN ALEXANDER!!!

Alexander sailed his eyes and fixed his hair, simply running his hand through it for the millionth time. A knock was heard from the door he was leaning on and Alexander flinched. He turned around and opened the door a bit, meeting eyes with Jefferson.

"James left for work early."

"Where does he work again?"

"He works at Hyvee."

"Cool."

"Yeah he works in the checkout isles and stuff."

"That's cool. Do you wanna get lunch I think we're soulmates I love your soap by the way."

Jefferson opened the door all the way and stepped in, looking down at Alexander. Aexander was shaking a bit and cracking his knuckles and fingers. His eyes looked worried and nervous and he looked like he was about to cry or he already was. Jefferson sighed and looked away as he cleared his throat.

"I know that we're probably... that. But, I..." Jefferson smiled nervously, "Alexander, I'm dating James! How is he going to react to this! Us! He'll be heart broken, Alexander!" Hamilton winced at the raise in volume. "I can't just... I can't be responsible for his pain, Alexander! I can't be in the blame again!"

Alexander shouted back, "You won't be in the blame! Nobody will blame you! It's an act of soulmate marks they can't blame you for that!"

"But they will! They did before and they will again, Alexander I-"

"When?!"

"WHEN I BROKE UP WITH BURR!!!"

Alexander covered his mouth, stepping back a bit. The sudden outburst from Jefferson shocked him and the answer shocked him even more. He completely was unaware that him and Burr were even together. When he stated this thought Thomas simply slapped him, anger in his eyes. Alexander held his cheek in pain and began to cry, glaring up at Jefferson.

"FINE! I'LL LEAVE! I'LL JUST WALK THE FUCK HOME AND YOU CAN STAY HERE WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND THAT YOU SHOULDN'T EVEN BE WITH IN THE FIRST PLACE! A GUY YOU'RE NOT EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE WITH OCCORDING TO FATE!!!"

Alexander marched to the door, picking over a table whilst doing so. A base shatttered on the floor and water and flowers fell. He slammed the door shut behind him and put his hood up, sobbing and crying. He could hear Jefferson telling curses at him from the house and he struggled to ignore him.

"DON'T COME NEAR ME EVER AGAIN, HAMILTON! I HATE YOU! I'LL NEVER," Jefferson stopped to sob, "I'LL NEVER LOVE YOU!!!"

Alexander pulled out his phone and called Hercules. "P-Please," He sobbed, "come pick m-me up. Starbucks." Alexander Jung up before Herc could ask questions again. He went to the Starbucks and sat outside on one of the tables.

Hamilton buried his head in his arms and sobbed. He sobbed and sobbed and didn't stop after it began to rain. Everything was painful. His mind hurt. His heart hurt. His lungs hurt. Everything just hurt. He hates me... He'll never love me... My soulmate hates me... Alexander pulled his sleeves up and sobbed harder, covering his mouth. The familiar red lines going across his inner wrists gave him a thirst for more pain.

I deserve it, I deserve this pain. I don't deserve anything good... I yelled at Thomas... Herc's car pulled up and Lafayette got out of the driver side. He helped Alexander to the passenger side and shut the door, getting to his side of the car and immediately driving away.

"Hercules called me since he was at work. Alexander, what happened? What did he do to you?" Lafayette whispered, pulling over by the park and looking at him. Alexander calmed down a bit and explained what happened, juat sobbing harder in the end.

"Oh, Alexander..." Lafayette whispered, hugging Alexander across the seat. Alex sobbed into Laf's chest, clutching onto his jacket (which was actually Herc's). Lafayette offered to drive Alexander home but Alexander refused, saying that he should take him home.

Once he was home and Lafayette he. Trashed. Everything.

He smashed almost every plate and cup, threw his books around, ripped up his writing, and finally got into a ball in the corner and cried. He cried for 6 hours non stop until finally it was night time again. Over the last few days he hadn't quite been paying attention to the date or time of anything. Too caught up in love and other problems. He weakly stood up and walked over to his laptop. Opening it up he opened a new document and began to type. He wrote about every single feeling that was flowing through his mind about Jefferson until it was all done in his head and he was officially calmed down. It took 5 hours for him to clean up his entire apartment and 2 for him to fall asleep but eventually he did and he had no dreams that night.

Thomas fell asleep in bed next to James. After Alexander had left he cleaned up the mess he so rudely made and took a half hour to be alone in his room. He thought about Burr and the breakup that they had had so long ago. Thomas had tried to carefully tell him that he had met somebody else but Burr just began to cry quietly, saying that it was alright. Later he found out that he went to Charles Lee and sobbed for hours.

Thomas couldn't sleep that night and he couldnt sleep tonight either. His neck felt cold and he felt a broken feeling in his heart. Alexander... Thomas knew Alexander was his. He knew that he was supposed to be Alexander's. But, he couldn't hurt James. James was a cinnamon roll and he couldn't even think about him crying alone in this room, thinking about what he had done wrong.

James Madison turned over in bed and looked at Thomas' open eyes. He huffed, "Why are you awake?" Thomas shrugged in response and James moved a girl of hair from his boyfriend's face. "You can tell me if something is wrong, Thomas. It's ok." Thomas looked away and almost wanted to cry.

"Love?" James whispered, moving his hand back.

Thomas looked at James as a single tear rolled down his face. James quickly grabbed the tissue box and held Thomas' hand, running his thumb over his smooth dark skin

"There's something I have to tell you and I have to figure out.... and I know that if I'm right, you'll break..."