youngjae's pov:
it was the day after the whole glass accident i had. the cuts that i got already scabbed over and were most likely not going to scar. i made up in my mind i was going to do something tonight. i was going to talk to jaebum once all my friends went to sleep. i saw the cuts on his feet and his limping. it really worried me. where did he even get the cuts anyway? the only way he might have got them was earlier today when... i paused for a moment to think and then it all suddenly clicked in my head.
i was the one who did this to him.
i was the one responsible for injuring jaebum.
it was my fault.
this same thoughts kept running through my head until everyone was tired and headed to the spare rooms, but i wasn't tired at all.
in fact i was wide awake.
i couldn't sleep with the fact that jaebum got hurt because of me.
i sat on the edge of the bed waiting for jaebum to get out of the bathroom so i could talk to him. after about two minutes of waiting jaebum finally got out of the bathroom. that's when i decided to speak up to him.
"jaebum," i say
"what?" he asks
"did you get those cuts on your feet because of me yesterday?" i ask
he sighed and walked over to the bed. then he took a seat on it next to me.
"yes," he says
"why didn't you tell me?" i ask another question
"because i want to take care of you and not worry you," he states
"why did you walk through the glass with no shoes on. you should be more careful," i scold
"i know, i know," he mumbles
"DON'T YOU I KNOW ME JAEBUM! DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I BLAMED MYSELF SEEING THOSE CUTS AND YOU LIMPING? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT WAS EATING ME UP? THAT YOU TOOK CARE OF ME AND THAT I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF YOU! IT HURTS JAEBUM, IT HURTS SO MUCH!" i yell at him
"WHY DO YOU EVEN CARE?" he yells back
i look at him shocked with wide eyes and then i look at the ground and sigh. i could feel tears pricking my eyes.
"d-do you r-really not know...." i say softly
"WHAT?" he says back
"THAT I LOVE YOU! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO GET IT INTO YOUR MIND THAT YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT CARES ABOUT YOU!" i yell
i quickly ran out of our bedroom and downstairs. i put my shoes and and left the house closing the door with a slam.
it made me angry that he thought that no one even cared for him, but at the same time i was wondering if i would ever regret telling jaebum that i love him.
