Just a (Jungkook x Reader)

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After weeks of confinement and binge watching kdramas, (Y/N) was finally getting the cast off her arm. The doctor said she could use crutches to move around since her arm was healed. (Y/N) was more than excited to be able to move around again, even if it meant hobbling around on crutches.

Her recovery of her arm was just in time for the filming of Bangtans comeback. Jimin's hair was now pink, Namjoon's hair was purple, Yoongi's was black with blue streaks, Jin's was a light brown, Tae's was also a brown, and Jungkook's was light brown with blonde highlights.

Speaking of Jungkook, he had yet to visit (Y/N). When she was awake at least. At ungodly hours he would sneak into her room and quietly sob. Even (Y/N) wasn't awake at this time despite her sleeping troubles. However, it happened to be otherwise on that night.

Jungkook slowly opened the door to (Y/N)'s room and peeked inside. From the door it looked as if (Y/N) was peacefully sleeping on her side facing the window. He slowly closed the door and crept toward the chair near her bed.
Preoccupied by the task of staying completely silent, Jungkook failed to notice the dim light radiating from a phone screen. He finally made it to the chair, sat down, and sighed in relief.
(Y/N) twisted in surprise. She was faced with a startled Jungkook. His eyes were as wide as Jin's mouth when he ate. They stared at each other for what seemed to be a millennia.
"Jungkook oppa?", (Y/N) said as she tilted her head in confusion.
"I-um... this is- uh wow- didn't expect you to be awake....", Jungkook stuttered looking everywhere but at her. "Uhh... so what's good my lit homie?" He fidgeted nervously in his seat.
Did I just actually say that? I am an actual dumbass
"Don't you 'what's good my lit homie' me!! You haven't talked to or visited me in weeks and that's all you're gonna say?", she whispered angrily, trying not to wake up the other boys. She sat up and carefully turned her body to face him as to not harm her injured leg. "Did that confession not mean anything to you after all..?" Her voice quavered. She looked down as her eyes teared up.
"No no no, I meant each and every word, (Y/N).", he frantically replied.
"T-then why didn't you v-visit me? Or even talk to me?", she said in a small voice. The tears she tried to hold finally came. "I understand you're busy... but everyone else visited me. I missed you. I missed you so much, but it looks like you didn't feel the same way."
"I wanted to visit you so bad. I wanted to drop everything and come be with you. I wanted to help you in every way you needed. I wanted to do anything you wanted." He kneeled on the ground next to her bed and looked up. His heart clenched at what he saw

Tears flowed from her eyes and her eyes refused to look at him.

"Then why didn't you?"

That was a good question. Why hadn't he? Why hadn't he done what he wanted? Why hadn't he been there for the girl he cared oh so deeply for?

This is your fault

You're the reason she's injured

Oh, that was right. It was out of guilt and fear. Fear of hurting her again.

The tears he didn't realize he had were now flowing too.

"B-because... b-because...(YOU MAKE ME BEGINNNNNNNN) ", he struggled to admit. She looked at him expectantly, surprised to find tears staining his face as well.

Just tell her

"Because I'm a god damn coward. I was afraid.", he finally admitted. His head hung low and his vision was blurred.

"Afraid of what?", (Y/N) asked confused.

"I was afraid to... I was afraid to face you.", he whispered. "Afraid that you'd hate me, afraid that you'd blame your injury on me as much as I blame myself, afraid that Taehyung Hyung would be even more mad at me, afraid of seeing the consequences of my recklessness, afraid to hurt you even more, and afraid that I had changed things between us."

Stupid stupid stupid

She looked at him in shock. The strong golden maknae that never cried had broken down right before her eyes because he felt responsible for what happened to a lowly make up noona.
She moved his face to look at her and looked him square in the eye.
His eyes were filled with sorrow and guilt and it broke her heart. However her eyes were filled with relief. He was ok and he still cared. That's all she could ask for. She leaned down and pulled him into a hug.
"Pabo, it only hurt more when you didn't visit me.", she whispered into his ear gently. "But it's ok, you're here now."
He hugged her back and whispered a million apologizes.
"I'm sorry for being stupid. I'm sorry for being a coward. I'm sorry for not visiting. I'm sorry that I hurt you. I'm sorry for.... for everything...", he rambled, sniffling every now and then. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry (my brother!! I had to ok??)"
She hushed him.
"Jungkook, it's ok. I'm ok. We're ok."

He nodded into her shoulder.

They stayed in each other's embrace for just a while longer.

Hi! So I'm back ish. Sorry for not updating in like half a year, but hey! I did it! Sorry if this update is shitty. I've been somewhat struggling with where this plots going.

Also I went to BTS' concert in Chicago.

Died because if was the most amazing thing ever.

I can die happily now.

Highlights:
Taehyung wearing a golden glove and slaying it
Hobi and his shark(?) hat
Yoongi throwing water on the whole front row during Cypher
Rap Monster jumping around during Cypher
Jimin just being smol in general istg that cinnamon bun
TBH Jin's solo made me cry bcuz wow
Jungkook in bunny ears, my life is complete

Just all the solos in general like damn

The whole concert in general

Just wow

Just a tad bit dead here.

Anywho yeah so hope y'all are doing well

And peace

Rei 레 ❤️