Dan Howell x reader fanfiction

Part 18

(Hey I know I mentioned in the beginning that you're from america but idk if I said if your family lives in England now too.)

Y/n pov

I laid awake in my bed, dreading the day that was about to present it's self to me.

I breathed out, trying to bring myself to get out of my bed.

I sat up and pushed myself out of the bed.

I walked into the bathroom and rested against the wall, looking into the mirror.

I stared at my miserable condition.

My messy hair that stuck out in random places, matted with knots, and the roots soaked with grease.

My eyes were red from tears, sunken in, and accompanied with dark bags that sat directly below them.

My lips were chapped from lack of moisture because I haven't had the motivation to get out of bed and get water.

My skin was also dry and flaky for the same reason.

My back ached and my legs felt weak.

I sighed and checked my phone.

I had left it in the bathroom and I haven't checked it since I found out what happened.

I had forty-three unread messages and eighteen missed calls , mostly from Dan, and the rest from relatives, most likely them apologizing for the unexpected news.

I opened Dan's messages.

"Please answer me."

"I know you're sad."

"I'll see you in the morning. Please try and get ready in time."

"I will be there for you the whole time."

I read them to myself.

"I'm so glad to have him in my life. I don't know what I'd do without him." I smiled faintly, for the first time in two days.

I took off my pajamas and climbed into the shower, turning of the shower and adjusting it to the right temperature.

I sat down and let the water run through my messy hair.

I reached up and grabbed my shampoo and let my arm fall back down.

I had no energy to do this.

But I had to.

I washed my hair and conditioned it, leaving the conditioner in long enough that I could comb out all of the harsh tangles.

I rinsed it out and shaved.

This process took me twice as long because I struggled to motivate myself to continue.

After I managed to complete all of my tasks, I remained on the shower floor for a while.

after a few minutes I forced myself to get out of the shower and get ready.

I turned off the water and step out of the shower, drying my body and hair with a towel. 

I wrapped my hair up in a towel and put my pajamas and did my make up.

I tried to cover my dark circles with concealer and darken my oddly pale skin.

I put on some winged eyeliner and mascara.

then I brushed my hair.

I let my hair air dry as I chose my outfit.