Jazz
Today is Nate funeral.
It's been a week since the situation and Nick haven't said a word to me.
I understand the situation so I'm not pressuring him.
Naomi know what is going on but she don't.
I something like this isn't going to hit her until she's older.
I was helping Naomi pick out her out fit and making her a bath.
"Ok Tt I'm going to where my black princess dress." She said taking them out.
"What shoes you gone wear?" I asked turning the water off and walking into her room.
"These ones." She said pointing at her all black timbs.
"Naw baby you gone wear these." I said grabbing her flats that tied up like ballerina shoes.
"Yeah that do look better." She said making me laugh.
"You are a trip." I said grabbing my back and standing up.
"Ok Tt I love you, I'm about to get in the tub now." Naomi said waking in the bathroom.
"Love you too." I said cracking the other bathroom door in her bathroom that leads to the hall way.
I walked across the hall to my room and nick was looking through his closet for a suit I'm guessing.
I went to my closet and looked for an outfit.
I couldn't find nothing.
"Nick can I barrow $100?" I asked walking behind him.
He took some money out of his pocket and just gave it to me, he didn't even look at me.
I just started to cry,
"I can't do this any more, it's been a week and you can't even look at me... I'm trying to be here for you but I can't if you won't let me, I'm not bout to sit here and act like this shit is normal because it's not!" I yelled throwing the money at him.
He didn't even look at me.
I looked at my ring then looked up at him.
My feelings are hurt and I am very emotional.
I decided to just wear my black pencil skirt, my black long sleeve loose fitted turtleneck crop top underneath I put on a black spaghetti strap and my red bottoms.
I got in the shower and washed up afterwards I unwrapped my hair.
I decided against wearing the heels because I'm pregnant, so just put on my flats.
We got in the all black Range that tony was driving and Naomi sat between me and Nick.
I felt him looking over at me and I looked out the window.
When we got to the funeral momma was sitting in the front with al and Nate daddy.
Me and Nick sat behind them with they grandma, and Naomi sat with momma.
We sat down and Nick tried to grab my hand but I moved it.
He looked at the side of my face and mugged the fuck out of me.
I rolled my eyes and shook my head.
At the funeral everybody on the family side had spoke momma was crying so she couldn't even go to the podium.
Nick was looking at me the whole time he spoke.
Naomi spoke, she said her daddy is the best and she love him like a thousand times but it was cute.
Amber, Sebastian and Jay was there and they sat in the back.
Dee and Dione don't like funerals so they didn't come.
Now we were all at the repast.
Me and Nick was sitting at two different tables he was sitting with momma and al and I was sitting with my brother and Amber.
"Girl why is y'all doing the most?" Amber asked looking at Nick staring at me.
"He haven't talked to me in a week and now in front of everybody he want to act like we all perfect." I said looking at Amber.
"Well here he come it's time for y'all to talk." Amber said getting up and taking Sebastian and Jay.
He sat next to me and looked at the side of my face.
"Wassup." He said looking at the side of my face.
"Nick why are you talking to me?" I said rolling my eyes.
"Because I can, fuck you gone do if I don't stop talking to you." He whispered yelled.
