Pandas

I wasn't stalking him...

So apparently some of the neighbors in Mary's house moved away... he looked kind of sad so I talked to him a bit about it. We made plans to hang out later so I hope that goes well, I guess I may haves made more than an aquatint  today, maybe a possible friend who knows...  I SAW RORD TODAY AND WE TALKED A BIT AS WELL I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT ALL I CAN THINK OF HIS BEAUTIFUL EYES AND CUTE HAIR IN HIS HAT AAAAAAA!!! It was amazing just listening to his voice... I wish he knew who I was from middle school though then we could pass the boundary of just neighbors but.. he may reject me from that. He maybe angry... who knows what happend over the years. And i don't want to loose another friend.. i've lost to many people to count because of what i am... and I don't want him to leave me too... I love him more than anything i can describe his personality is wonderful! He is so sweet and caring he listens to his friends... shit...

I should stop watching him through my window shouldn't I...yea... I just don't want him to leave me like everyone else. He's too good to be hurt by me. But yet... i want him to know.