all you need is a little love

sleepless nights thoughtless days

Charlottes POV

"Dad!!" I yell as i run to him

"Charlotte its alright everything is going to be fine, Now what did you want to tell me?"

"I'm .... im pregnant"

"No your just fat"

throughs pregnancy test

"Oh My You Really Are "

"You Dont Say and im not even fat,

I need to tell Cody but hes in his operation"

The Next Day

Still Charlottes POV

I woke up as I heard codys room door shut the nurse said I could go in just dont be to loud or yeah

I got in I looked at him he looks horrible I can hardly recognize him I walk over and kneal beside him he looked at me he squeezed my hand

I told him"im pregnant"

next thing I knew the heart machine started beeping the nurses and doctors came in and made me get out they tried and tried and tried to bring him back to life.

I let a tear run down my face my dad saw me he ran over and caught me as I was falling to the ground he heard the beeping he knew exactly what it was he put me on the seat and kissed me on my forehead

when I woke up I was in a hospital bed my dad by my side and holding my hand he told me Cody died I didnt want to believe him its impossible he must be still alive he cant be dead.

I ask"can I see him"

"no sweetie they need to take a scan of bubz to make sure everything is fine because you collapsed"

A lady does my scan she says im 20 weeks I could hardly believe its been rhat long since it happened and then she asksnif I want to know the gender and of course i say "yes"

she tells me im having a little girl

"me and cody already had names for if we ever had kids for a girl it was Ariana and boy Ashton

but i guess im having Ariana"

"I need to see Cody" I demand

"ok but your not gonna like it"the young nurse said

I walk into the nearly empty room with just a body on a bed no machines no nothing hes lying there looking so peaceful but terrible

a million thoughts go through my head

20 weeks ago we would of been getting married but now things have changed

im pregnant

Codys Dead

Im gonna be a depressed lady with a child

im gonna get no sleep

im gonna have to work and take care of Ariana all by myself

im going to be a horrible mum

what am I going to do

two weeks after the funeral

Charlottes POV

its the middle of the night I cant sleep I just keep thinking of the night it all happened we shouldn't of gone I told him that but he really wanted to see me

I just blocked everyone out moved into a small apartment which is trashed and just stare at the roof saying to myself

its my fault

im a idiot

I dont talk to anyone I dont go anywhere I dont eat my family is getting worried about me my dad wants me to go to a depression group and Codys Mum wants to look after Ariana while im there bit im still pregnant

there's not a day that goes past I dont wish it was me I think about killing my self I think about cutting myself as im only 19 and pregnant with no partner just me I've been through alot in my short life a few years back I had a miscarriage and failed to pass highschool

my mum was a alcoholic my parents split up my mum got a new guy who used to beat me up whats the point of me living I ask myself day by day

Codys mum visits weekly now and cleans up and makes me eat.