oh sadness, i'm your girl

Elastic Heart

I tried killing myself

I had it all planned out

Jump off a building

Doesn't work

Hang myself

Doesn't work

Overdose

Doesn't work

Slit my wrists

I tried all of the knives in the kitchen

All too dull

I tried tearing apart a razor

I couldn't

I smashed a glass on the tiled floor

Left in it's wake

Was glass everywhere

A chiped tile

And a broken girl with bleeding wrists

My older brother walked by my room

Gave me one look

"If you're going to kill yourself

get it over with"

I cut more

And more

And more

Until my wrist was nothing but

Too many cuts

I cut until i stopped

Until i realised it wasn't working

Until i walked upstairs,

Woke my mom up,

And told her i wanted to die

She held it together

I cried

And my dad yelled at me

I thought he was going to hit me

My mom bandaged my wrists

Took work off the next day

Brought me to the hospital

And i spent a week off school

I still want to die