Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes one shots

Day 1 || just go

~A/N I'm really sorry omg it hurts me too 😭 ~
*Steve's pov*

It's 9pm and I'm waiting for Bucky to come home I guess he went to the pub after work, his dinner was made and on the table about 3 hours ago. I must have fallen asleep cause the next thing I know it's 3am and Bucky is drunkenly stumbling into the flat noisily, grumbling about something or other. I get up from the sofa and cross the small apartment to the kitchen to get a drink of water and to reheat Bucky's food for him. I start having a coughing fit once I reach the small kitchen, Bucky looks at me with a look of pity mixed with sorrow 'I got fired today' Bucky says followed by 'that's why I was at the pub, they fired me cause they found out I am in love with another man' he wraps his arms around me and presses kisses into my neck.. 'I didn't think they would find out, how did they even find out. It's my personal life and we only kiss in the flat, I don't get how they found out...' Bucky says he's shouting by the end of his small rant.. 'baby calm down, you'll wake up our neighbors' I say to him, 'fuck the neighbours one of them fuckers told my boss I am a faggot and now because of them I have been fired' he growls out. Bucky then starts mumble incoherently I can't quite hear him but I manage to catch a few choice words such as 'Steve's fault', 'fuck', 'disappointment' and 'hate' i asked Bucky what he was saying, to which he replied 'I'm sick and tired of being fucking fired from places for being a faggot it's all your fault Steve, I fucking hate you, I'm such a disappointment, how did I let you convince me to date you?maybe I would be still living with my family, maybe I would be able to keep a job, AND I WOULDN'T BE A FUCKING FAGGOT GOD DAMN IT I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH STEVIE' he spits the last sentence out with such venom, 'I know you don't mean it baby you're just pissed off at the fact you got fired' I say as calmly I could but his words stung and my voice betrayed me and showed how hurt I was, 'don't fucking call me that I don't want to be your baby or your sweetheart or your doll, i wish I didn't know who you were, I fucking wish I carried on walking when I saw you getting your ass kicked by those guys in the alleyway all those years ago!hell I wish I helped them beat you' with every word my heart broke more and more, 'I didn't know you felt that way ba-Bucky' I say with tears falling down my face, he laughed awfully and glared at me. Wow I guess he really does hate me, 'if you want to leave, just go.. I won't stop you, you have made it very clear that you don't want me, I just wish you had told me before I had fallen for you ' he starts to say something but I don't think I could handle it so I interrupt him 'baby' he interrupts me shouting 'don't call me that', 'I'm sorry Bucky, James just go' i repeat, he grabs him coat and leaves just like I had asked him too and the second the door closes I break down in tears, did he really hate me that much that he could just leave, he didn't even try and say sorry he just left...