Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes one shots

Day 2 || do i know you

A/N I changed the words from 'do I know you' to 'I don't know you' but this is super long and it goes from fluffy to sad and it destroys me I'm sorry omg...
Bucky's POV
It's been 15 years since I've known Steve and it's been about 5 years that I've been in love with him, i remember the first time I realised I was in love with him was when he drew me for the first time he made me sit perfectly still in his room for 3 hours. Today is the day, I'm going to tell him how I feel, I'm going to tell him that I love him and I hope he feels the same... I walk to Steve's house and I stand outside his front door contemplating if I should knock or not for 30 minutes in the end Steve opens the door and says whilst laughing 'I've been watching you pace back and forth for the last 5 minutes buck what's wrong, what'd you need to say? Oh and before you ask how I know you want to say something, it's cause I know you buck, I know when you have something in your mind so come on in and spill it' I take a deep breath and walk in and make my way to Steve's room, his house is like my second home I'm always here so it might as well be, I sit in Steve's mattress and motion for him to sit down too. 'Steve you're right I do have something on my mind and I need to get it out or else I'll never forgive myself just please don't hate me' he cocks his head to the side in the adorable way he does when he doesn't quite understand something 'Bucky I could never hate you, your my best friend, you can tell me anything' "friend" ouch I don't want to be his friend I want to date him, I want to kiss him, I want to call him mine.. I take a breath and say 'ivebeeninlovewithyoufor5years' he looks at me for a minute and says 'what?! All I got from that was 5 years, slow down babe!' BABE! He called me babe oh god I sound like a preteen girl fuck! Oh well I don't care he called me babe. I repeat myself slowly and once again Steve is just looking at me 'Steve buddy please say something, you said you wouldn't hate me, please say something for fucks sake shout at me if you must just say something anything, please' I beg with tears in my eyes but he still doesn't say anything. I get up and start to make my way out of Steve's room when 'wait, shit Bucky you love me? I fucking love you too, I have loved you since i was 12 years old I just can't believe you love me fuck Bucky babe' I was in shock and I was a stuttering mess 'I.i.i you Lllove me' Steve loved me back, he loves me omg.. I walked across the room to where he is stood by his bed, and kissed him... the kiss was everything I'd had dreamed of and more, I pulled back and rested my forehead on his and smiled at him 'god I love you' I say, he just smiled at me and kissed me again... the rest of the day is spent in Steve's bed kissing and just talking about how we fell in love with each other and just about stupid shit and god I could not be anymore in love with this punk...
*Beep, beep, beep, beep* huh what is that beeping? Where is it coming from?!?
I gasp and shit upright in the bed, wait where is Steve? Where am I? Is this a hospital? Am I in hospital? Why am I in hospital? It all comes flashing back to me I got into a car accident, I came off my motorbike and crashed into a car, I lost a lot of blood and I guess I passed out... wait what about Steve? There is a button next to my bed that I think calls a nurse, so I do the only logical thing and pressed the button, a few minutes after I pressed the button in walks a doctor and a nurse, the nurse looks very familiar but I can't place where I know him, the doctor asks me a bunch of questions about who I am and what year it is and where I am and shit, he explains my injuries to me and tells me they had to amputate my arm and they gave me a metal prosthetic replacement, 'how long have I been out?' I asked aloud the nurse replied with '4 months' I felt like I was going to cry i know why he looks so familiar, it's Stevie, my stevie 'Steve? Is that you? Steve!' I say and try to get out of the bed to get to him, Steve ignores me and walks out the door. it's been a few hours and the nurse comes back to check my pulse and to bring me food and stuff 'hey wait, steve? Sir please wait, Steve stop please!' He still ignores me so I try once more 'Steve stop! Wait are you Steven Grant Rogers?' I guess I must sound sad because the nurse turns to face me and cocks his head to the side like Steve does, he walks over to my bed with a sad look on his face 'hey kid look I'm not this Steve guy you keep asking for I don't even know who he is, my name is Chris Evans, i don't know you! Your just a patient who has been in a coma for 4 months, I'm not this Steve guy okay, Steve must have been part of your coma kid, he isn't real and he never was, I'm sorry I've got to go' the second he walks out the door I break down sobbing it all felt so real I remember meeting Steve, I remember the butterflies, I remember his favourite food and I remember everything but it wasn't real... None of it was real, I still love Steve even if he isn't real, why couldn't it be real...