"Need you! You just want someone to need you? Who needs a whiny bitch like you! You're a cry baby, for no absolute god damn reason, you're a bitch, and you refuse to take care of yourself! You're exactly like a baby and I can't be you're fucking Daddy because your real one flaked on you!"
Although I couldn't see him as he said this, I knew his eyes were dark, yet he was full of relief. He acted as if saying this to me would get him into heaven and that maybe this would finally get rid of me. All I needed was someone to need me, to want me like I always need them. I don't want to be sad all the time but I can't...
don't retaliate, you need him.
If you say something to him, he'll leave.
"You're just as bad." I trailed off.
"Hmm?" He looked puzzled that I spoke up.
I looked up to him with tears in my eyes and the most overwhelming burn in my throat.
"You're just as bad!"
I began screaming at him.
"Your daddy left too if you don't remember! I'm sorry I was born with a few of my screws fucking missing, but that doesn't give you the FUCKING right to call me a selfish bitch! You're ignorant, and your logic never makes any sense! You let a girl ruin your life because you "love" her and you won't even think about taking me to a fucking movie and I wouldn't do a goddamn thing to hurt you but now I'm pissed. You telling me I'm a crybaby for no reason proves you've never listened to a god damn thing I've said!"
"Because it's always THE SAME-"
He ran his angry hands through his hair.
""DADDY LEFT, I HAVE NO ONE, FAMILY ISSUES." EVERY. FUCKING. DAY. YOU'RE PATHETIC-"
"AND YOU'RE CANCER! TREAT YOU IN ONE SPOT YOU POP UP IN ANOTHER!"
He looked at me shocked.
Then slammed the door, and never came back.
— z.s // excerpts from a book i'll never write #32
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