Bad boy

chapter 9.

omg omg omg omg, im so so sorry :(((( i've been watching the vampire diaires and like omg.

help me. im done with life. comment if you watch it.

(LILY'S POV)

It's been a couple of  weeks since the movies, the movie we saw was devils due, let me say it was scary. I was cuddled up to harry I know he enjoined it because all he could to is chuckle whenever I flinched.

But other than the movies he has been trying really yeah he has a temper but he does try. I can tell whenever we see kristy somewhere he squeezes my hand gently letting me know that everything is ok. I don't have competition with her like seriously he wrote about me in his journal, did he ever do that with her? No because she's a whore. 

The other day harry told me those three words "I love you" and I froze up I don't know if I love him I mean I like him a lot but I don't love him just yet you know what I mean? I cant love him, right?

Today he's taking me out for lunch, hopefully.

I put on a gray flow tank and some black jean, to put on top of the tank a cream cardigan. My hair was curled so I put on a beanie. For shoes I had some black heals. jewelry I had some black heart shaped earrings a gold necklace with spikes, then a ring with kinda a black cone you can say.

*few hours later*

I cant believe he stood me up it's not 5 in the after way past lunch I cant believe him. He doesn't love him ha.

I went back up stairs and put on sweats an a sweater, I threw my hair up in a messy bun. Soon I began to remove my makeup as I sat on my bathroom counter facing the mirror. When I saw a tall figure I soon realized it was harry. 

"What do you what?" I say throwing away the wipe with my makeup on it, I still sat on the counter. 

"i want to apologize for standing you up today" he say making my roll my eyes 

"ok and?" i look at him through the mirror 

"and what? I'm fucking saying sorry what else do you want me to do? take you to a romantic date to Paris?" he yelled making me flinch

"get out of my house" i say Fidling  with my fingers 

"what? no" he crosses his arms over his chest 

"harry i say get out of my house!" i yelled at him. he didn't even flinch 

"so you're not even going to let me explain?" he asks 

"No not when you come into my house yelling at me! Now get out," I yell at him. Standing up from the counter getting closer to him. Then he grabs me by my waist a pushes me against the wall "and what if I don't" he questions into the crook of my neck.

I bring his face up to mine and smile. Then before I know it my hand makes contact with his cheek.

"don't come into my house and start yelling at me. Now get out" I say holding back the tears.

"Fine" he say walking away.

Now its close to 7 at night, its saturday night and I'm laying in bed crying. Why am I crying you might ask. Well because I slapped my boyfriend. Well I don't know if we are still but I don't know. I have my tv off and my christmas lights on. I'm playing 'skinny love' by Birdy.

Well I'm playing everything on my playlist.

~ Give me love ; Ed sheeran

~ Let her go ; passenger

~ kiss me ; ed sheeran

yeah i know i sound like the girls in the movies. i dont know why I'm acting like this I mean with Ashton I never acted like this. Do I love harry? I feel my heart break when he walked out the door. I don't know whats happening to me. I've changed since I met harry.