My Bubble Of Antidepressants And Shrine Of Problematic Events

III

'I shouted out like a bird set free'

- SIA, Bird Set Free.

<~>

It took mere seconds after the words slipped from my mouth before she screamed, literally, her tone reaching the pitch in which I was incapable of understanding how she could make let alone endure a life with.
This screech belong to Mykki, she was by far one of my more peculiar friends, siding on the side of just straight up inhumane, except that wasn't a flaw.
It's what made out friendship more intriguing to people, that's the way I put it. However she had another way of saying how our friendship was.
'It was straight up fucked,' her words, not mine.
I kept that opinion to myself, and I plan on doing so till I reach the very grave.
However, plans can differ, after all, you've seen the way they can go completely askew in the matter of moments, seconds even.
So, what did I tell her? What did make Mykki, make rare friend screech you may wonder?
No surprise, I'd finally come to an understanding, acceptance was both bliss yet shattering, finally I'd let go of a person I'd held on to for too long.
I'd announced I was under a spell, with a boy.
So, now we skip to the following conversation.
Mykki: 'What's his name, age, sexuality, height, weight, favourite colour, blah blah blah?'
Me: 'Slow down for a second Moo, you're going a little bit off the train tracks here, it's just minor, not even that big.'
Mykki: 'Well my eyes say differently, your cheeks a brighter then a friggin tomato, eyes avoiding me from embarrassment. This. Is. So. Cute!'
Me: 'Shut the fuck up.'
Mykki: 'Never! I must never! I shall never let go of this utter amusement, of this new development! I am so friggin happy!'
Me: 'Moo.'
Mykki: 'Oh my gawd! James and Miller kissing in the tree, K-I-S'
Me: 'Shut the hell up before I remove your voice box.'
Etc.
So, as you can see.
It was a pretty big deal.
However, in life there's ups, there's downs, and there's a rollercoaster dragging you round town.

<~>

'So, I have a little crush on you, it isn't major just tiny,' I said.
You looked at me perplexed beyond recognisability, your eyes widened and I feared that you were to laugh, a younger guy had a crush on you.
Maybe the game 'Paranoia' wasn't such a good idea?

<two days prior>

I didn't know what to say, the words were a distorted jumbled mess, my heart ached and paced at an ungodly race in this claustrophobic space. Eyes of blue burned into my, I began to panic, panic at what your reaction would be.
His name, is Evans, and that eyed species human was no one other than my cousin, my marriage.
At least, I think that's the deal, who knows?
Anyway, we were pretty tight, so why would I be worrying, here's a couple of factors:
1. I was coming out, to him, a family member, a relative of mine.
2. He was into the one, the only religion known as Christianity.
So, you can see why I'd be a little bit uneasy, right?
However as time matured and I finally spoke the reaction wasn't as expected, instead of shouts, Holy Water and the Bible.
'Really? I'm so happy for you!' Was instead his bubbly approach to my newfound sexuality taste.
'So, how'd this happen? Who is the person?' He inquired.
I remember the pursing of my lips, the static the fuzzed my brain and the lump that resided in the nape of my throat. I'd never been too good with nerves, especially ones that came just too close to home, and this was as home as it could get.
'Well, you know how at the LAN party-
'Miller, isn't it?' Instantly the words, the truth spilled into the air, suddenly the pocket of air was clearly noticeable and my heart began to cave in from shock.
'How'd you guess?' I managed to speak without major stuttering, red was too late to cover from my cheeks, my heart now spiked at an abnormal speed. Instead, of Evans laughing at my crimson lit cheeks, my heavy intakes of breath he spoke.
'So, how's this going to work? What are you going to do?'
It was from that moment, that single second in time I found the true meaning of friendship.

<~>

There's very few times in life when you meet true friends, these friends are ones you can pour your heart and soul to, ones you can cry on, ones who know of your personality inside and out, can understand every single particle of you better then most.
Introduction: Thus my friend that is a cat in heart Nik, rare breed of human, my 'Emo Butterfly' if you will. Basically I entrusted Nik with everything in my life, he knew of my passions, my ambitions and my transaction (Jokes).
I trusted Nik with my life, still do till this day.
So, when I told Nik of my newfound love it didn't even take any effort, however his reaction was forever priceless, basically, couldn't care less.
Then, the realisation hit him with a hard 'thump', instantly he was to be rounding on me, inquiring everything, demanding it as if it was his godly right. The show was the practical definition of humour, the euphoria was dripping from the moment.
'So, who is this guy? What's his name? Tell me he's a cutie!' Was basically the words that formed questions.
I instantly had nodded, 'His name is Miller, I met him at this gaming thing,' I began to explain.
'So have you chatted to him by any chance?'
Now, this here people's is when the joke becomes involved, this is the 'inside joke'.
This is a moment when I look back and can't help but let an involuntary laugh bubble from my parted lips, a shriek of happiness escapes me within seconds.

<~>

Authors Moment.

Hi Everyone! How is the book looking?
Does my story interest you? The chapters intrigue you? The book of my life stun/humour you?
Either way, I feel good expressing myself through something I love.
So, interested to hear why I find 'chatting' to Miller hilarious?
For that, let's go to the next chapter of my life.
#MiniCliffhanger.

Peace,

Jamez.Kri.er