A Dangerous School Nerd

Finding Out Part One

Chapter 9: Finding Out.

        Ian's POV (Lillian's big brother one of them)  

      After finding out that Zach didn't sleep with Gwen, was a huge relief because, I actually had a true friend, but also knowing that Zach's older brother slept with my ex- girlfriend, instead made this even worse.

       Watching my little sister get shot, was even worse and knowing that I could have helped her with everything she's been through because of them. I  parents are going to freak out because their "perfect daughter" is nothing like they think, and her peers think of her as the school nerd, she has three sides to her, I know that our parents see her as the perfect daughter that she's popular and head cheerleader and everything, but really she's still trying to figure everything out.

      Lillian is trying to figure out who she really is, but she doesn't know how to, I don't think she's dangerous, she can be a bit of a nerd, she's funny, she's a little bit of everyone of our siblings.

       Lillian's POV

        I am in this beautiful place, with flowers and butterflies, I'm by this lake I always use to go to, with my grandparents a lot, until they passed.

      "Grandma? Grandpa? Is that really you?" I asked.

       "Yes Sweetheart is really is us" Grandma said smiling sadly.

       "Where are we?" I asked.

       "In between" she said.

       "Why?" I asked.

      "You were shot honey" Grandpa said.

       "I was?" I said confused.

       "Yes you were" he said.

         "But, how? When?" I asked.

        "You went to their house, saw all of the plus Gwen, then Ian shot Gwen, then Alan shot you in the side because Zach and Ian distracted you, he shot you and now they are going to jail for the crimes they did, your in surgery right now" Grandma said.

        "That's what happened?" I said shocked.

       "Yes, we have been watching over all of you, your mom and dad, you brothers and sisters, you" Grandpa said.

      "We know that you are trying to find out who you really are, not someone that you are forced to be, like the nerd that's at school, perfect daughter at home, a dangerous gang leader, but honey your all of those girls, we just need you to be yourself not someone your not, you need to believe in yourself again and not hide" she said.

     "I don't know who I am anymore, they made me lose who I am, I can't remember who I was before, that person has changed I can't be the same Lily you guys know, I've changed because of them, I am all of those girls, because it's just a face a cover so nobody knows what's really going on inside, I've lost who I am, I can't find myself, I can't believe in myself until I find myself and I can't do that without help" I said.

     "Sweetie your not in this alone, you have your friends, your family, Zach" she said.

    "I know I will have them, but once mom and dad find out what I have been hiding from them, which is a big secret that they never knew about, they only know about Lillian Claire Marie Scott, not Lillian Claire Scott, partly because I was just protecting them something like me I guess" I said.

     "Oh honey you can't always protect them, they are adults they can protect themselves, they are suppose to protect you not the other way around, they took our deaths really bad honey they were protecting you from themselves because they aren't the same anymore not without us there, but I think they are going to be there from now on because you need them more than ever now, and I have a feeling you know what to do after this" she said.