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baby

jc pov

ellies been ignoring most people in the house the only three people shes talki to is trevor, ana and ricky. I did not see my mame in there once did you? nope.  I thought of some things I might need to do just so I can get her to talk to me but ive tried like all of them but if has come to the rashional one, I threw on my grey skinnes and blue top 0. I ran downstairs I saw her on the decking lookin at the swimming pool. I walked out she looked at me not even a small smile appared on her face. I sighed I dont wanna do it but ya know.

"Ellie I need to speak to you?" I said she turned around she was in her ripped denuim shorts with a iver-sized grey jumper and her blue vans.

"ditto"she said "I just wanna say sorry for what your about to do" she eyed me she knew I was goin to do it.

"well. I dont see any point of us being together anymore since you dont talk to me lately"I sighed she nodded not lookig at me

"YAAAASSS! "shouted ricky from indoors I looked indoors and saw him playing with effects with kian ana and everyone pissing themselves I was about to walk away when she let a moan escaoe her lips signalling she was crying I couldnt comfort her since she was no longer mine...ellie smith is no longer mine. what have I done? I carried on walking I sat on the chair in the kitchen so I could look outside. I watced as she walked to the chairs and sat down she ran her hand through her hair.  she then got up and walked in I noticed she pulled her sleves down more please dont say she did...please...please.

anas pov

"yass.,, I am a super model, bet you l8oked lime me"said ricky as he played with effects for a video aw kian was also pretendimg to be a sheep aww funny blokes haha.

hey ana umm im worried about ellie shes not answering my calls-harry-

yeah shes going through a rough time atm sorry-ana-

I thougt that would be you tbh but okay thanks-harrry-

why me ??-ana-

oh you haet heard welll... you know penny your baby girl..well shes gonna be given back to you soon-harry-

what? how do you know?-ana-

things get around in our area hun.dont forget -harry-

okay so I haven't told kian about my baby I had at 16 but gave up cause I didn't want to be a mum and my elder sister took her of me but I suposse she died (the sister not the baby ) its about two years old now aw. I waited for kiam to finish. he walked over and hugged me.

"kian I need to speak to you'"I saod he looked at me confused "I had a child at 16 but I gave her up and now shes coming back to me"I whispered he looked freaked out

"WHAT!?"shouted ricky "why wasnt I told?"he asked more calmly,

"cause you weren't there so masie took it of me and raised but then she died so it went to an ophange but thy have no room so its coming bacj to me but i will ty again to give it up again for adoptiom"I explained iian looked even more freaked out. I could not handle this,

ellies pov

I walked upstairs to be by myself I cried and cried I got my joirnel and wrote what I felt

Im sick of crying im sick of trying im no longer who I used to be im now someone else who surffers from depression. I no longer have my perfct boyfriend inhave a perfectly shaped razor blade instead. no longee have my brother because he is dead instead I have a pale white wrist I no longer love the ripplets of water all I see is dropplets of blood.

I finally stopped amd walked to the bathroom. I picked the blade I hid in my cabinate I pulled my sleves up reavling my cuts feom a few days ago I piered my soin again again inill I was satified I wiped the blade I wipped my wrist. I got well stumbled across the room to my bed I laid down gently.

a/n sory not long not good promise next chappie will be better and hopefuly up tomorrow xxxxxx