A/N sorry for not updating the past couple of days. I was recovering from what i did on Friday. Which was drink. A lot. I'm never doing it again. Don't drink, it's bad for you. Anyways i'm feeling better now so i'm going to update. Yaaaaay.
Harry's pov
I can't believe I just did that. We were just starting to get back on track now I've fucked it up. I always fuck things up. I don't deserve such an amazing boyfriend like Louis. He deserves so much better than me. He can do so better than me. I walked to the bathroom and locked myself in on of the stalls. I opened my bag up and reached into the bottom of it where i kept my secret stash of blades in case I ever needed to use them while I was out. I took one of the blades out of the packet and lifted my sleeve up and dragged the blade across the already scarred skin. I winced as I saw the trail of blood go down my arm. I done it again and again and again. I was feeling dizzy. I heard someone call my name. But I didn't know who. I was drifting off. Then I hit the floor and everything went black.
Louis pov
I was frantically searching for Harry, asking people if they saw him but nobody had. I was seriously panicking now. What if he did something? No he wouldn't do that. He's strong, he doesn't need the reassurance of a bade to feel better. Unlike me. I went into the bathroom as the last resort. If he's not in here then he would have probably gone home.
"Harry." I called as i walked into the bathroom. "Are you in here babe?" I started opening the doors of the stalls. "Please Harry, I know that you're mad at me but please just tak to me. We can sort this out." I said. Then i got to the end stall and it was locked. I knocked on it to see if anybody would answer but they didn't. "Harry, if that's you in there please open the door. I know you don't want to talk to me. But at least show me that you're ok." There was no answer. I started banging on the door. Still no answer. So I went into the other stall and climbed onto the toilet seat so I could look over and see who was in the other stall. I saw a sight that I really didn't want to see. I saw the love of my life passed out with cuts on his arms and a blade in his hand. I got down of the toilet seat and tried to break down the door after like ten tries I finally did it. I checked for Harry's pulse. It was there but it was very faint. I called the ambulance and they said they would be here in ten minutes.
"Harry please stay with me, I can't lose you. I know i'm such a fuck up and you don't deserve me and you can do so much better than me but i'm so happy that you chose me and decided to give me another chance after you said that you wouldn't. I promise that I would never do anything to hurt you ever again. I love you too much to do something like that to you. Why didn't you tell me about this? We could have helped each other out. I'm trying to stop for you. You're saving my life Harry and I can't lose you, not now, not ever. Not in my moment of crisis. I can't live my life knowing that I could have saved yours. If you die then I die. I know it sounds crazy but I just won't be abe to live my life with out you. I love you Harry Edward Styles, so fucking much that I can't even begin to explain. Please don't leave me. Please don't." I said with tears trailing down my cheeks.
"Lou, I love you too, but its my time to go, you need to find someone better than me and trust me you will. Someone out there can love you way more than I ever did." Harry said his voice is hoarse. Then his head feel to the side. "No Harry, it isn't your time to go. I can't find someone better because there isn't anyone better for me than you. Please Harry stay with me." I begged. I checked his pulse again. But this time there wasn't one.
"You can't leave me, You can''t. You're life wasn't supposed to end like this. You're too young to die!" I cried out. People started to come into the bathroom. They probably heard my outburst.
"Is he ok?"
"Is he dead?"
"Have you called the ambulance?"
