Metanoia | Kim Taehyung

Chapter 3 - The One That Got Away

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From that night, we have been closer to each other than ever. We keep meeting at night, having small talk over a cup of coffee. I always feel giddy whenever he is near me. His words always turn my world upside down. As I keep spending time with him, I can’t help but falling for him. I realize that he is my teacher, but I can’t control my feeling anymore.

Today lesson starts with English. Nice! I get to see his face again. 5 minutes later, he walks into the class, looking so hot. He greets the class and the lessons start. The lesson is going smooth until someone disturbed me. “Hey, Grace! I can’t help but notice that you are smiling in the class lately, especially in Sir Daniel class.” Such a pain in ass.
“Can you stop bothering me? We are in the middle of class.” I ignored him and continue focusing on the lessons.

“Then, who are the lovey-dovey couple that I saw few days ago. You’ve shot to try on our teacher, why not be with me instead? I can give you more than him. He smirked proudly as a sign he winning this stupid thing. “Shut up, stupid! You don’t know anything.” I raised my voice towards him and startled the class.

“Grace, may I know why you sound so angry in my class? You look like something is bothering you. Whatever you feel right now, doesn’t interrupt your friend in the class. I’ll put you on detention after school. Shit! I give that stupid deadliest glare. He keeps bothering me throughout the day.

After long a tiring lesson, the class finally ends. Oh crap, I’ve got detention to be done. I sighed heavily and decided to take a sleep throughout the detention. I plug the earphones and play the lullabies song and slowly feeling asleep until someone took my earphones off. Slowly, I open my eyes and Sir Daniel face popped in front of my face. I almost fell from my seat until he holds me by the shoulder.

“Sorry I startle you, but Little Missy, you’ve got some explanation to do. Why are you mad earlier in the class? Is it because of me? “He keeps getting closer, as I can almost felt his breath. I push him off slowly and he pulled a nearby chair and sit facing me. Silence hits me and I wonder how to put the words nicely.

“Are you going to keep silence? I’m going to leave then.” He sat up from the seat and almost walked away until I halt him. “Wait, I’m going to explain to you. I raised my voice earlier because the person beside me keeps bothering me.”
“As I know, you are not someone who will be affected by others. Why don’t you just ignore him.. you just..”
“How can I ignore him when he is speaking ill about me and you together?” Damn, I didn’t mean to say that. Grace, your mouth should been sew together, geez. He just chuckled and let a small laugh.  How can he laugh about this matter? I almost left him in the class until he pull me back right to the seat.

“Other person needs to knock your head before you can tell it by yourself. I should give him good grades since he unconditionally help me.” This is getting weird. Our conversation keeps getting odd. “I’ll get straight to the point, Grace. We have been so close since I met you personally at the park and as I keep having small talk with you, I can’t help but falling in love with you. I know it’s so sudden, but I can’t get you off my mind. I keep telling myself I shouldn’t but I can’t hold my feelings.” I was totally shocked as i thought I’m the only one feeling this way. He is still explaining something that I can’t hear anymore.

Unconsciously, I pushed away the table separating us and give him a small peck in the cheeks.
“You know, you are so unpredictable! How can you just kiss me like that? I should be the one to initiate it.” He sound so displease but his face said the opposite.
“Shut up.” We laughed and teasing each other throughout the detention. Now I know that the detention is the only way for him to talk with me about this matter. At that moment, I was the happiest girl alive.

Few months passed quickly. Since that day, we have been careful in school and only showing affections outside school. Furthermore, I am focusing towards my final year in high school. No more secret dating after I finish my final examination this week. He has been supporting me throughout the whole week. I never had been this happy. He makes my world alive.

Today is my graduation day. After many tough years, high school is done. I decided to pursue fine arts since my boyfriend told me I was good in arts. Speaking of my boyfriend, where the hell is him? He is supposed to be here. The graduation is getting to end. It’s weird. Last night, he was so eager about the graduation and blabbering about how much he waited for this. I’m getting impatient waiting for him, thus making my way out from the school.
“Babe! “ He waving his hand at me and showing off a bouquet of flower. Geez, that’s why he late. He approaches me slowly until he receives a call. He picks up the call and smile at me, thus I gestured him to walk faster since he was crossing the road. Suddenly, a car abruptly hit him in front of my eyes. At that moment, I felt my world stop. I rush over to him and ask someone for help. I assure him that he’s gonna be fine.
“Babe, you’re gonna be fine. “He’s gonna be fine. Right then, I can feel the hot liquid flow from his head right to my hand. Oh God, help him. “Babe, I don’t think I’ll make it..”
“Don’t say that. You will be fine.”
“I… love you…” He was caressing my cheeks. I cannot stop my tears anymore. It’s like he is saying goodbye. Suddenly, he drops his hand and stop moving. I shake him up calling his name but there is no response from him. The one that I love is gone right in front of my eyes.

After that day, I never leave my house. I don’t ever attend his funeral because I don’t want to accept that he is not with me anymore. Every day was lifeless and cold. I was deep into my thoughts until my phone rings. “Hello, may I speak to Grace Park?”
“Hello, Grace speaking.”
“This is from student administrative office, I’m sorry to disturb your day Miss Grace but apparently, you left some of your belongings in your locker. There is a letter for you and hopefully you can claim it.”
“I’ll get by today. Thank you for notifying me.” I ended the call and dress up lazily to get the stuff as I don’t feel going out too long. After a few minutes of walking, I arrive at the school and went straight up to the administrative office and claim the things. All belongs to me except a letter than I never notice before. I walked away from school and decided to take a walk near the park and sit at nearby bench.

This is odd. I never notice a letter before. Wait I know this writing. This is his writing. Since when did he leave a letter in my locker?
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Dear Grace,
How are you doing? It seems you are busy lately with your final examination. I was happy that you’re working hard for yours final. I’m proud of you my little missy. I know you hate it when I called you like that, sorry. To be honest, I don’t know why would I write you a letter, but I just feel that I need to write it. It feels like this letter going to help you someday. Since the day I met you, it have been the happiest day for me. I never regret anything when I spend my time with you, except your crappy jokes about my ages. I was thankful you open up to me and let me bring out the best for you, because you bring the best out from me. Whatever happens in the future, I want you to be happy, to keep smiling and to be brave because you are a strong girl. As you put your trust on me, put some trust to others. It hard being young, but don’t wasted your youth. I will always pray for your happiness no matter where you stand. I love you and will always do.
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I never realize how big his love is and how it change me. He sacrifices a lot for our relationship and I won’t disappoint him anymore. He won’t like seeing me bawling out every day and mourning for his loss. I’m going to live the way he want me to live, because that’s the only way I can keep him closer and repay all the things he have done to me. I love you too, Daniel. Always.

p/s: First few chapters focusing on Grace, afterwards I'm going to elaborate more taehyung.. Love y'all