Metanoia | Kim Taehyung

Chapter 5 - Fate

It has been a few days since I met Taehyung at the rooftop. He still seemed aloof in class, but I can see that he not giving the cold shoulder to his clique anymore. He a little bit polite in rejecting people. Jimin kept teasing me about liking Taehyung since I've always watched him, but I just shrugged him off. I'm just curious about him. Today class was as usual except that we've been told that we will have additional project. Nice. I hate project because it takes lot of times. I rather finish it in one time rather than dragging it all long.

"Okay, class I've already distribute the group. You guys can check your group. You'll be working in two. The theme for your project is youth. I would like you guys to show your definition of youth. You can choose any methods of paintings you like. I'll put your finished arts later in the upcoming exhibitions. That's all for today, thank you." Oh great, I thought I would be pair with Jimin, but instead I've been pair with Taehyung. To be honest, I'm afraid he'll be rejecting me off. I've to try my luck then. I approached him slowly and initiate the conversation.

"Hey, Taehyung. Are you okay being pair with me?"

"I'm good."

"Great, then could spend some time with me this evening to discuss about the project."

"Okay."

"See you at the park in front of school at 5 p.m." That's weird, for him to agree this fast. I left him behind to catch up for lunch with Jimin and the others.

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The view from the park was breathtaking. No wonders students liked to spent their time here. It was so calming and relaxing. I was so engrossed with the view until a deep voice interrupt. He took a sit beside me. Both of us didn't utter any word. Taking our time to appreciate the views.

"I'm sorry before for shouting at your house and thank you for the CD. I enjoy it." He did listen to it. That's why he seemed a little bit composed.

"No biggie, you know if you have any problems, you'll free to talk to me. Okay, about our project, I need to clarify something. I need to know you a bit before we started this things, because I need to your point of view regarding the matters."

"There's nothing interesting about me. I'm a 22 years old guy and lives a floor below you."

"I know that, how about your preferences, family, vision and stuff."

"I don't have that."

"Okay, let me tell you about myself first after that you can tell about your story. I'm Grace Park, 22 years old and from San Francisco. I live alone and my parents are dead since I was 10. I really like to eat and there's nothing I can't eat. Since high school, I distinct myself from people and that's the reason why I....."

"What did you get by telling me this and I'm telling you my story?"

"I just want to know about you, that's all. It's okay if I didn't gain anything. I just want to know. Since you interrupt me, I'll just get straight to the point. Each of us have their own problems, I have mine and you have yours. You have to overcome your problem because you are damaging yourself. I know that you might think that who are me to judge you and stuffs, but trust me, I've been the same before. I was broken, until his words heal me."

"He?"

"He came unexpectedly, leave me hanging with his word, took my heart away and bring it with him till the heaven. He taught me to change and live my life. You should change Taehyung. It will hard, but those emotions you'll be fighting will be worth it in the end."

"If I can't change? What happen then?" He looked nervous but at the same time he's ready to spill it out. That's what I thought.

"I will help you, you won't be alone. In fact, Jimin and the others will also help you, but you need to open up towards us. You should not...."

"He is the one who holds me when I'm sad, happy or frustrated. His love makes me comfortable. I grow up with him, but he moves to States when I was in high school. I remember I cried so hard pursuing him not to go, but he said he need to be there. He was happy being there and I was so blessed he never ever forget me. He said he fell in love with someone and going to introduced her later, but because of one stupid call, he's gone. I should not call him that day and rant about how I miss him. We flew to attend his funeral and that was the last time I saw him. I never met his lover that his always brag about. I felt sorry for her, because he died in front of her. I'm so mad, angry, frustrated that I shut down myself with people."

"I've been in the same situation like yours. I've lost the only one I love, but I never made that an excuse not to move forward. Because I know, he would not like seeing me broken. Believe me, he would also hate to see you broken because of him. Let him go by being happy remembering him."

We just keep staring at each other and I'm giving him the cheeky smile to ease him. For the first time, I saw his small laugh. It so beautiful seeing him this happy. This boy know how to laugh. We didn't discuss anything related to our projects, instead we spilled our stories and having small laugh over it.

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It getting late, and I'm really hungry. Taehyung must notice my give me food expression that he offered me dinner at his place. I was reluctant to accept the offer, but he assured me that his food was the best in the world therefore I give it a chance. The best my ass, he just cook ramen that night. No wonder he said it the best. I should just bought McDonalds earlier. Well nothing to lose actually, I get to see his place. He totally a cutie pie, with plushie and cute stuffs. He argued that he was manly and I backfired at him that manly man do not have pink hairballs hairband. We were having so much fun that night. I was browsing through his photo albums until I spot late Daniel...

"Taehyung, who's the guy in this picture."

"That's my half-brother, Daniel Kim. He is the one that I've told you before."

Daniel was Taehyung brother? Then, he was the one Daniel was talking on the phone. I was literally shocked and can't move at all. I never knew that I will met your brother here, no wonder his gaze remind me of you.

"Grace, are you okay? You look pale."

"Oh, I'm okay. I'm just not feeling well. I need to finish my work, Tae. See you tomorrow." I was trying to leave as soon as possible until he stopped me.

"Grace, can you.... could you walk to school with me, tomorrow. But it's okay, if you can't.... I"

"See you tomorrow morning." I quickly run up to my room. My brain still can comprehend with thesituations before. Daniel once told me before that he got someone to introduceto before, but I never knew it will be Taehyung. What willhappen when he knew that I'm his brother's girlfriend before?