I Have A Crush On You?

18.

I'm staring at myself in the mirror. My grey joggers and Arctic Monkeys jumper is extremely comfortable, my hair is in a high ponytail and my face....well, my face looks pale as ever. I pinch my cheeks so that there is some color in them and I put some mascara. I decided to go college today and start my routine and stop being a little cry baby.
Jace offered that he'll drop me to college but I declined. I grab my bag and lock the house.

Yesterday was fun. Dylan was fun, as annoying as he is but I hate to admit that I enjoy his company. It's easy to talk to him. He is so cheerful all the time and always smiling. The only thing I love about him is his smile, his smile is the best feature of him. That cute toothless grin he gives which sometimes gets hidden behind his fucking beard, he needs to chop that off.
I feel so selfish right now, I haven't spoken to any of the girls in the past week and I feel bad that I shouldn't have shut them down. But I don't know what I was feeling anymore, and realising the fact that I won't be seeing mom anymore wants me to shut myself in a room and never come out and face this cruel, so very cruel world. And of course there is Austin Jones, who will ever be in there in a way for me. I still have feelings for him and who am I even kidding? Of course I do. It's not that easy to get over someone in a blink of an eye. I keep telling myself not to think about him not to look at his pictures which I have in my phone, the ones I clicked while our practice without him noticing. I try to block out his face, his voice and his guitar playing. Every time I close my eyes I can hear the chords. It's very hard to not think about someone who you thought would be someone you wanted them to be.

I reach college and there are a lot of people and I just want to hide under a blanket and listen to music. I go to the locker room to get my books and I spot Nikkie and Maddison standing over there and I can't help but smile. My people.
"Good morning y'all." I say and hug them, "What the hell, who are you? Where is the Piper we know? The one we know doesn't say good morning," Nikkie teases and I laugh.
"Well, I didn't know what to say honestly." I admit.
"Piper you went through a tough time, it's okay" Maddison smiles at me and I'm overwhelmed.
"But but but I'm going to kill Austin for sure" Nikkie says and I don't know if she is joking or no, I hope she is not joking. "He is such a dick, I mean who does that," Nikkie adds and I want them to stop talking about him. I feel someone standing behind me and I turn around to see Dylan standing there looking at me smiling. Does he ever stop smiling?
"Hi butty" he laughs and I groan, not this again. Nikkie and Madi looks at me with raised brows and I just huff.
"Dylan." I say and I see Sara walking towards us, actually towards Dylan and I can't help but laugh. This is going to be fun.

"Hi Dylan" she says in a squeaky voice and hugs him pressing her not so tiny chest against his chest and I want to puke. He coughs and hugs her. "What are you doing here?" Sara eyes me up and down scowling and I keep a straight face.
Two can play at this game sweetheart.
"You are coming tonight with us to the party right?" She asks him rather loudly, "Oh yes I am" he winks at her and kisses her cheeks.
Oh.
Nikkie Madi and I are just standing there, "I guess we should go, we have class." I say and grab my books. "Bye Dylan." He stops me to say something but I walk away.

"Is this too much?" Madi asks fixing her hair. She is wearing a striped dress which stops mid thigh. We all are at Hannah's house. Girls wanted to go to this new pub downtown and I didn't really have a choice and they did not even acknowledge me when I said no, so here I'm fitted into my tight leather pants and a tank top, my hair is in wild curls with bright red lips and my eyes are hooded with smokey makeup and all this thanks to Hannah, she said I have to be 'dolled up' today and for what reason? We don't know.
"Tell me again why are we even going there?" I ask again hoping they will change their mind and we can stay home instead, "To enjoy" they all say in unison. Hannah is wearing a checkered dress which stops just above her knees. Nikkie with a black dress and we are ready to go now.
We get into the cab, let the fun begin.