Yuri Katsuki is an anxiety ridden teenager in a dangerous downward spiral. He is alone, having pushed away everyone close to him. But Yuri never wanted to be alone...
Victor Nikiforov is a bright and bubbly boy with many goals and ambitions. But whe...
Yuri Katsuki woke with a start, his baggy night clothes clinging to his sweat covered body. He looked at the clock on his nightstand. 2:07 in the morning. Yuri groaned to himself. Looks like another late night for him. More time to be lost in his own thoughts and sucked into the tornado that is his mind.
Yuri figured he had better occupy himself for as long as possible before his thoughts consume him. He trudged quietly to the kitchen and poured himself a glass of water. His house was silent. It was almost eerie, because his house was always filled with noise and light. Yuri leaned against the counter and replayed the nightmare in his head while sipping his water.
In his dream, he had been in a large group of people. A big no no for a person with severe anxiety such as Yuri. The crowd was in chaos, people were all running around and screaming. Yuri was trying to stand on his tiptoes to see what the commotion was about but he couldn't see anything. Dream Yuri was being jostled around in the crowd. He felt a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach. His heart rate picked up a and he could feel himself start to lose control. All of a sudden the ground beneath him collapsed and he tumbled down a dark hole, hands grabbing at him on the way down.
Yuri woke up in a cold sweat, the feeling of hands still burning his skin.
After Yuri had finished his water, he made his way back up to his room. He changed out of his damp, sweaty night clothes into new ones and settled back under his warm covers, naively hoping that sleep would come.
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Victor Nikiforov woke up with a vibrant smile in his face. He stretched out his long limbs, brushed his long silver hair out of his face and got out of bed. He went down to the kitchen and made himself an omelet, all the while humming a random song under his breath.
When he had finished his breakfast, he went back to his room to get dressed for the day. He brushed out his long locks and put them in a messy high pony tail. He pulled on a V-neck shirt and a pair of black joggers, choosing to keep his outfit simple today. He quickly brushed his teeth, pulled on some sneakers and bounded out of his house to begin making his way to school.
When he arrived at the , he parked his car and walked into the school, only to soon be met with a huge crowed circling something. He managed to push through and see what was going on. In the center of the circle, he saw Yuri, "Yurio", Plisetsky being pulled off of Jean-Jacques Leroy, or JJ as most people called him. Yurio was yelling profanities at JJ, while said boy just shot a cocky smirk in Yurio's direction.
Out of the corner of Victor's eye, he noticed a boy with Black hair and glasses running towards the bathroom. While Victor didn't catch a glimpse of his face, he had a good idea of who the boy was. He believed it to be Yuri Katsuki, the only Japanese boy in the school. While Victor had never had a proper conversation with the boy (aside from when Yuri got wasted on the spiked punch at prom, but that's a story for another time).
Victor decided to go after Yuri to make sure he was okay. He had been hurrying fairly quickly and seemed visibly shaken. Victor made his way into the bathroom he had seen Yuri go into and stopped short. He heard sobs coming from one of the stalls. He went to the stall and knocked on the stall door. "Yuri, are you all right?", Victor asked tentatively.
When he was met with no response, he pushed open the stall door, which had been left unlocked.
He was met with a hysterical Yuri Katsuki.
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Yuri Katsuki arose from bed that morning exhausted. He hadn't gotten a wink of sleep last night, aside from his nightmare but he didn't really count that because made him feel more tired than before, so he was very on edge. He took a quick shower, ran his fingers through his damp hair and got dressed in the first clothes he saw. He brushed his teeth then went downstairs to grab a granola bar. On his way out the door, he bid his mother goodbye and started to walk the five minute trek to his school.
When he arrived, he noticed two students in a very heated argument. Suddenly, the smaller kid lunged at the bigger one and sent him sprawling to the ground. All the students started crowding around the boys. And Yuri was stuck right in the middle of the wild crowd. He could felt a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach. His palms began to get clammy and his breath quickened. He was having an anxiety attack. Yuri knew he had to get out of there fast. He pushed through the crowd and sprinted towards the nearest bathroom. He didn't even have time to lock the stall door when he collapsed to the floor hyperventilating, tears streaming down his face.
He was so wrapped up in himself that he didn't even notice Victor Nikiforov, the nicest boy in the entire school, had opened the door to his stall and was squatted down in front of him. Yuri felt Victor grab his hands. "Breathe Yuri, just breathe" he heard Victor say over and over again. Slowly, Yuri's breathing evened out, but there were still tears streaming silently down his cheeks.
Victor looked into Yuri's eyes, seeing someone broken, possibly beyond repair. But Victor wanted that look in his eyes to go away. Ever since the prom last year, Victor could not stop thinking about him. He looked happy back then. Victor wondered when the sadness had creeped into his once bright eyes, dulling them down into
Perhaps it had always been there, hidden behind those warm brown eyes.
Once Yuri had calmed down some, Victor gently pulled Yuri to his feet and used a paper towel to dry Yuri's tears. Victor straightened Yuri's glasses and leads him to the front desk. Yuri is too emotionally exhausted to argue as Victor explains what happens to the lady at the front desk.
She gave Yuri a pitying look and waved them on. Victor led Yuri out to his car. Yuri was still silent as he let Victor buckle him in. Victor then got in the driver's seat and left the school, headed towards town.
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A/N: soooo that was the first chapter. What did you think? I hope it wasn't too depressing. I just wanted you guys to see how bad Yuri's anxiety affects him and how much of an issue it is. It's going to be a huge part of the story. But don't worry, there will be happy times soon😁. Also, I don't mind if you correct my grammar as long as you aren't rude about it. Any feedback is welcome.
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Also, here's your daily dose of Victor. I don't know who the fUCK DREW THIS BUT ITS FUCKING BEAUTIFUL. By the way, none of these pictures are mine. (I can't draw worth a shit) Credit to the talented artists.
