The story behind this one is I wanted to face the truth instead of acting like it was all a lie. The truth was I started liking somebody and I didn't understand why. I first told my sister(friend) and had her tell the person I liked because i couldn't bring myself to do it. Then we had talked about it i told her i didn't like this feeling but here i was having this feeling. I told her i was going to bury them and forget about them but she told me not to- Embrace it.
Doesn't that seem like a green light to you? Or how about this, we get off the bus after a game and I asked her "So what are we going to do, you have a boyfriend?" She asks me who told me that. I replied "you did and I seen him at our game at EK" and as she was walking away she replied with a smile on her face,"So?"
Don't you think she was telling me to go after her? Or did I misread her message because as I was chasing after her like a puppy in love by flirting with her more often, making her mad in a playful way, being a gentle man* by carrying her bag, making sure she was okay, when she got injured I was there with her, throwing water at each other. I mean how couldn't she see I wanted her even after I said it. At first I was madly confused because I found myself getting jealous whenever guys came around and started talking about your body I'd walk away. Whenever you started talking to a guy I'll watch in the corner of my eyes with fury in them because while you were looking in his eyes he was looking at your body. You told me one day you was going to help me with my homework and guys came in and I guess you forgot about helping me and I stormed out of the gym and tried to hide the pain but for the rest of our study hour I was pissed at you because you knew I had feelings for you so why do that in front of me-- it was like I wasn't even there or it was just a game to you but the funny thing is I couldn't stay mad at you for some reason.. I couldn't say no to you.
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* not saying I wanted to be her boyfriend but couldn't she tell I just wanted to be with her..?
