Pain & Pleasure: Perplexed Love {Wattpadprize14}

Chapter 12- Desire vs. Pain/ Pain vs. Pleasure part 3 (edited chapter)

 I was ashamed to say I was leaning towards letting him in, but there were a few very crucial things holding me back from doing so.

The main reason that overshadow all others was the most serious. My mother was due home any minute, and I could not let her see Liam. I knew if she saw him, she would instantly be the friendly mom and try to invite him in. I could not have that, especially since Liam, and my relationship was anything but normal.

Liam's expression has become even more desperate in the last five minutes that we have been staring at each other, making me feel the need to let him in and satisfy his craving even more. It also did not help that his pleading words were starting to nip at my heart strings. 

"Kyla, come on, please I'm begging you. Your killing me here," Liam said while continuously running his brawny hands through his hair in frustration.

Sighing in defeat, I went against my better judgment and decided to invite him in, but right before I could speak up Liam said something that stopped me from uttering a word.

"Its all your fault I'm like this anyway," Is what he said, and that statement had me looking at him like he was the most insane person in the world.

What did he mean it’s all my fault, how did I contribute to him wanting my blood and showing up at my front door in the first place. How could he even have the nerve to blame me. 

Crossing my arms under my chest, I glared at Liam for the millionth time today, "What is that supposed to mean, Liam? How the heck is all of this my fault? You know what for a minute there, I thought I was being too hard on you. The fact that you were desperately begging me had me wanting to let you in, but just like always no sooner I let my guard down a little you do something to make me regret doing so," I told Liam harshly and made a move to close my front door.

"Kyla, look I'm sorry for that just know, but you don't understand. Please! Just let me in and I'll explain everything… After I get what I need," Liam said, and before I could retort again he gave that intense stare of his capturing my attention.

"Kyla, its a win, win for both of us. You know I can make you feel good so just let me in. You can get what you want out of this too," He said in a husky seductive tone and my will power dwindled a little at that.

Before I could answer I was interrupted once again, but this time by my cell ringing from inside my vest pocket of my uniform and I was grateful for the distraction, Liam was starting to get to me, and he knew it.

Pulling out my phone I quickly glanced down at the brightly lit screen and read the flashing name. It showed that my mother was calling, and I all but dropped the phone trying to answer it. I wanted to see how far away from the house she was so I could have time to figure out what I was going to do with this crazy vampire at my door step.

"You are not answering the phone right now, this is important. I need to come in now!" Liam snapped at me, but I just ignored him finding out where my mom was at the moment was more important.

"Hello? Hey mom what's going on? Are you almost home?" I asked her and crossed my fingers and hoped she was not that close.

"Hey honey, actually that's why I’m calling. Did you read the note I left you in the kitchen yet?" She asked, and I quickly remember the small piece of paper on the kitchen counter that I spotted when I came home.

"Um, no I didn't read it yet been kind of occupied for the past few minutes since I got home," I told her while throwing an accusing look at the impatient Liam who look like he was going to lose it at any moment.

"Oh well, I won't be home right away because I’m meeting your father at his job. We are going to dinner with his new bosses. So I left dinner for you in the fridge and will be home around seven, Okay?" She said, and I made a quick glance to Liam to see him grinning. He must have heard what she said. 

"Oh, okay mom, yeah I'll be fine. Go have fun I'll be here," I said trying to rush off the phone now.

After she said her goodbye and I disconnected the call, I reluctantly looked to Liam once more. Staring at his face grin still planted on his lips, I suddenly had an idea, and since my mother and father were not supposed to be home for a few hours, it would be perfect to try it now.

"Ok Liam, I have a deal for you. You can explain everything now and then I'll let you in if I like what I here or you can just leave it’s up to you," I said determined and waited for his answer. In the back of my mind, I was hoping he would tell me so I could let him in.

Liam's grin slowly faded when I said that and he just looked back at me for what seemed like forever. I was beginning to think he was not going to answer me at all and just decide to leave, but then he pushed himself off the frame of my front door, grin back in its place.

Thinking that I had won, and he was going to give in to my demands, I waited for him to start explaining everything, but that never happened.

"Fine don't let me in. You don't want to give me what I need, that's fine too. Like you said before, there's plenty of girls around our school that would kill at the chance to do anything for me. I can get blood from anyone. Just don't get jealous when you see me kissing and touching someone else in the way I used to do to you," Liam said and turned in a flash and disappeared like he was never there to begin with.

I ,on the other hand, just stood there stunned, front door still wide opened along with my mouth. That was not how I thought it would play out in my head. I thought his desperation to bite me and needing my blood would override his hesitation to explain everything to me, and he would just spill.

Closing the front door slowly and walking back through the house, I sudden did not feel the need to eat, instead I lazily walked past the kitchen. I was too busy thinking about what Liam said before disappearing off my front porch.

Taking a seat on the living room sofa, I sat there contemplating over his words. The thought of him doing the intimate things we shared with someone else just did not sit well with me. I know the feelings I have for Liam are not mutual in any way, and as much as I hate to say it, even though Liam is a true jerk to me most of the time, the intimacy and passion we share during his biting sessions is something that I am starting to love and long for.

When we are in that moment, and Liam takes me into pure pleasure and bliss with every touch of his hands and every suck of his lips, I feel like the feelings that I have for Liam are returned to me by him. I feel like we have a connection of some kind in that moment and I always find myself wishing for it to go on for an eternity.

Sighing in frustration at my, never ending, confusing thoughts, I decided to lay out along the sofa to take a nap and try to subside my slowly approaching headache.

But before I went into unconsciousness I had one last thought, was it stupid and incredibly wrong for a person to want someone so badly that they would endure the pain and hurt that person caused just to keep the small bit of pleasure and happiness that person gives them?

Was it wrong to hope that one day that person would finally give their heart to them and return their feelings? Was it crazy of me to be falling for a vampire?…. A vampire who seems to take pleasure in using and hurting me to no end? Was it crazy to crave his touch and sensual bite just as much as he craves my blood?

If it is crazy then something is obviously wrong with me.