The deafening roar of my alarm clock scared me half to death . Confusion crept upon my face unknowing why my alarm clock is going off at 6 pm. Or the bigger question why am I sleep at 6 pm. Then it hit me that I had a photo shoot at 7 am this morning. Figures why there's makeup smeared across my white pillow case..and I'm wearing red bottoms . It's only a tad obvious. I must've came straight home and went to sleep , I mean why not I live alone. No boyfriend , barely talk to family , few friends. Loner status am I right. I rolled over to check my phone.
*MESSAGE FROM MOM*
That's odd my mother never calls or texts me on Friday night's. Let alone at all. I decided I'd open it later seeing as how if she ever does it's about babysitting my 15 year old sister Krystal and running her errands. And she has her read receipts on so I won't cause any arguments. A reminder about a party flashed across my screen
*REMINDER TREYS PARTY AT 7:30*
I jumped up out of my bed and nearly busted my ass. Note to self never sleep in stilettos.
I rammed through my closet hoping to find something suitable but comfortable that doesn't scream "I like this guy who invited me to his party so let me dress up as a slut to get his attention" . Yeah that. I grabbed a pair of ripped jeans a crop top and combat boots and ran out the door. Completely forgetting my face looks like shit. I ran back in my house grabbed my makeup bag and bolted back out the door. Waiting on my uber Trey called me. I squealed inside seeing his name with a bunch of hearts pop up. I swiped answer.
"Hello?"
"Hey Alexa , you still comin tonight?"
"Yep yep I'm on my way just waiting on my uber" I chuckled.
"Lit. Well see you soon I bet you look amazing. Bye Lex"
"B - "
He hung up before I got to say anything. My heart dropped when he calls me Lex. When we were kids he used to bite his lip when the 'X' came out. I'll admit it's super attractive.
A car pulled up in front of me. Assuming it was my ride , I got in sat back and enjoyed the drive. It was a long way up to L.A from where I stay. Remembering my mom texting me I called her not bothering to open her text.
"Alexa? Oh my gosh it's been months since we've talked hunny."
"Yeah hey mom. I saw you texted me but I haven't opened it yet so what's up?"
" Its Krystal . My oh my how she misses you. And Kevin misses you too." She laughed nervously.
"Krystal and I talk and FaceTime everyday , mom. And Kevin hates me. I'm lost what's really going on."
" oh sweetie Kevin doesn't hate you he just didn't like how you acted"
"How I acted!!!??" Tears welled in my eyes.
"YOU LET THIS MAN - " I paused forgetting I was in an uber. " You let this man tear our family apart all because you didn't want dad to get you the help you needed"
"Alexa Kevin is your dad sweetie" she said in dilousion.
"Mom I have to go . Tell Krystal I love her . I hope your taking your medication. I love you. Bye."
I hung up on my delusional mother. Trying hard not to get. She was getting worse. With Kevin around she doesn't get the help she needs. Desperately. No excuse to His actions but my dad tried so hard with her he eventually gave up and left. Not a word from him since. I snapped out of my trance and realized I was here . With 3 minutes to spare. The conversation with my mom putting me out of the party mood I was in. But I let it go and walked in with high hopes of enjoying myself. All eyes locked onme when I stepped in. Alexa the 'barbie' bitch. I shook it off attempting to find Trey. After a few minutes I stopped looking, grabbed a drink a started dancing . I began to start seeing my friends which made the 'Turn up' the ACTUAL turn up. I felt myself losing control of my liquor. But I thought nothing of it and kept partying . My girls were already bat shit drunk. Trey still wasn't in sight. What's there to lose? The floor vibrating from the music vibed perfectly with how I felt. I felt amazing. I felt loose. I felt , happy . I was already dizzy and all over the place. Kate was passed out on the floor which made me and the other girls laugh. I started seeing double so I took a break and went to the bathroom. Barely making it. I still knew my surroundings. Kind of.
I looked at myself in the mirror. Tears streaming down my face . Suddenly I felt numb. Stumbling out the bathroom getting odd looks from others slurring my words I went to get air on the balcony. Inhaling the fresh air. Enjoying the view . Half way sober . Who am I kidding? Not sober at all. I had no idea what was going on. Where I was . What was happening was a blur. Having a panic attack I climbed on the balcony. Just sitting there. Tears burning my eyes. Looking over the freeway traffic. Flashing lights and faint car horns. I heard a faint scream. Possibly from a female.
"ALEXAS ON THE BALCONY!! SOMEONE GET HELP"
I looked back blurry visions showed people standing there not knowing what to do. Scared. As well as myself uncontrolled breathing and panting. I heard phone cameras snapping photos. Trey ran out towards me. Persuading me to give him my hand .
"Alexa... " he says nervously
"Beautiful? What are you doing?"
" ishb cnsnj see the carshh" I slurred
"Yeah?" He said attempting starting conversation. Everyone was quiet. I let out a laugh. While he stood there confused steadily but slowly taking steps closer to me.
"STOP" I screamed
" You don't care if I jump off this balcony. Iaannnbg fact you don't care abuoouh me at all."
"Lexa , give me your hand."
"Crazy bitch" someone from the crowd said.
Suddenly , I moved an inch. Not thinking that inch would mean my life . I slipped.
Trey running towards the railing grabbing my hand just in time. Though I don't know what's happening , I want him to let go.
"Leshb g- g- go tr-"
"ALEXA LOOK AT ME PULL ON MY HAND"
I didn't cooperate. With all his strength he pulled me up to safety. Tears down my face as he holds me.
