Elvira's Sight (Diary of a blind albino girl)
Chapter 2
When I got home, I went straight to my Diary. Crazy, I know.
Dear Diary;
Imagine that! It's me again! So there's this new boy, Brendon, and he's blind! And yet, somehow, he knows that I'm albino. How? He's blind, so how can he see? That was all I thought about that day. He knew. How could he know? His words pulsed through my mind constantly. Albino. Girl. He was blind for God's sake! How could he possibly know? I was completely in shock.
Raina was mad, I could tell. She said nothing but rude remarks all class, and wouldn't even talk to her little skank friends. Score one for me, I guess. Well anyways, Brendon seemed pretty nice- after our little awkward meeting, he chit-chatted with me. I found out that his favourite colour is Black, and he became blind also on his 13th birthday. Creepy, right? The rest of my day was boring, so I won't bother writing about it. Oops, I guess I just did write about it... ah well...
~Lane <3
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I gently played with my sterling silver heart necklace, a gift from my grandmother. I was in a better mood than I had been in since, well, in a while. My brother noticed, too.
"Lane! Why are you so happy? Did you meet a boy?"
Ryan drew out the y in boy, sounding like a four year old. I huffed in annoyance, yet I inwardly smiled.
"No Ry, I didn't meet a boy. I met Brendon. He's weirder than a boy." I spoke, laughing. Ry knew me so well.
He smiled, and walked away.
"I'm happy if you're happy, Lane."
I was lucky that I had a brother who loved me so much. I plugged my DJ headphones into my iPod, and played some Alesana. My love for this music was indescribable. I was listening to "Congratulations, I hate you."
"No one ever said that life was fair, and I'm not saying that it should be
So knowing that you are where you want to be, and I'm not, comes as no surprise
But don't expect me to be happy for you
And don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity
I hate your pity
Taste your vanity and its sweet bitterness
As you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams...
...I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile
...You took them all...
As you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy
Swallow your pride
Beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries
Suffer alone in emptiness
I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake
Disgust lies deep within your empty gaze
Beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
Send stares into your meaningless eyes
My envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars
Leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine
Yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve
I'll tear off your face to see your smile
As you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy
Swallow your pride
Beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
Send stares into your meaningless eyes"
The lyrics to this song got me every time. It was so true to my feelings, that it was almost scary. I didn't want pity from people because I was blind, and yet I envied them because they had sight. I would never admit it, but I would give almost everything to have my sight back.
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