MorMor: Behind closed doors

Hurt (part 2)

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3 years later...

Sebastian was carrying Jim's limp body towards the exit at the top of the building. But he couldn't hold it together anymore and laid Jim down on top of that dreaded roof. Then Sebastian ran, he ran as fast as he could and as far as he could to get away from anything and everyone but especially from Him. But then he stopped knowing he couldn't run forever and couldn't erase all of the memories with Jim. But instead he wished that he could wake up from this retched dream and wake up to Jim smiling up at him both happy at the thought of growing old together. But that is not how it was going to be anymore. Not. Ever.

It's not fair that Sherlock gets to be happy and ALIVE. He gets to be back and grow old with his John and they get to be happy together but not YOU!

Sebastian woke up with a start he looked towards the clock on the side table and it read (3:20 am). Since that day Sebastian never got any sleep or when he did it would end up with him screaming Jim's name.

But today was different, he didn't yell for Jim. He just thought back to that day. Just a couple of measly seconds had driven him to rock bottom. But that was three years ago he had to move on. Now.

He eventually got up from his bed and crept into the kitchen to make coffee. While fiddling with the coffee pot he thought back to that day on the roof again. He knew that Jim would go above and beyond with everything including how he -. Sebastian still couldn't even think of the word. But he knew that Jim wanted Sebastian to follow him up to the roof at Bart's that day and witness what was going to happen. But it didn't mean that he had to believe it. While still deep in thought the coffee maker made a Beeeeeepp! sound making him pop back into reality.

With his steaming coffee he walked over to the living room but not before a mirror caught his view.

Looking at his reflection Sebastian flinched, he had dark purple and blue bags under his eyes and the sockets around his eyes were more sunken than ever making him look like skeleton like. His cheekbones were more prominent as well because since the 'accident' he stopped eating big helpings and maybe just a bite or two every couple
of days. (He didn't really keep track.)

After looking into the mirror for some time he walked over to the couch, sat down, and sipped at his drink and looked around his new flat.

He had bought a new flat since the old one brought back too many memories. But this one suited him better it was mostly black and didn't have many windows. But that didn't matter because he didn't care and no one would ever be with him in this flat. Not since James.

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Later that day...(around 1:40 pm)

Sebastian stayed inside most days as he didn't really have a job or friends to go to. But he did have some (a lot of) money from being Jim's sniper to live comfortably.

But today he had to go out and get groceries because the fridge and cupboards had been empty for quite some time. Getting ready took him a while as most of his clothes were loose and baggy around his body. So he decided that he needed to get some new clothes as well. Throwing on a black t-shirt and some black pants he headed out the door.

After being in the stores until about 3:45 pm Sebastian headed to the car, packed everything up and drove off to his flat.

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3:55 pm

When Sebastian got home he unpacked the groceries and plopped himself onto the couch leaving the clothes in the kitchen.

He was watching some crap telly until at 4:00 pm his television went haywire and a familiar face appeared on the screen out of the static.

Jim. The figure was saying Did you miss me? over and over again.

What?! No he died h-he died I bloody picked up his LIMP body and-

"Oh, my god! I pp-put him down on the roof! I WATCHED YOU DIE!"screamed Sebastian. He was in hysterics, but he was also scared that this would all be a trick and he would wake up in his flat alone.

But an answer came knocking at the door

Shutting off the television Sebastian slowly crept towards the door carefully unlocked it, and then he threw the door open revealing a short black haired man with dark green eyes looking up at him.

Those eyes... that had lighted up when Sebastian proposed to him. Those eyes, that Sebastian had fallen so deeply in love with. Those eyes....that had clouded right before his very eyes that day. The day that He died.

"James...." breathed Sebastian. He was at a total lost for words looking dumbfounded as the little Irishman grinned up at him.

"Well Tiger, darling I guess that I will have to explain mys-" Jim was interrupted by Sebastian pulling him up to kiss him vigorously with love and passion that neither man had ever felt before.

"Just shut up and tell me you will never leave again." said Sebastian laughing breathlessly at the confused look in those beautiful green eyes, that belonged to that beautiful man known as James Moriarty.

"I...umm...yes I will never leave you again my darling."chuckled Jim looking at Sebastian with some confusion. Quite honestly he thought that the other man was going to hit him or yell and scream but instead he held Jim like he was going to disappear and leave him forever.

"So where were you anyways?"asked Sebastian looking down at Jim with a serious expression on his face. But that was broken by the slight smile that crept onto his face. He couldn't believe it, Jim was back.

"Now now darling, let's take this one step at a time."replied Jim grinning up at Sebastian, pulled him closer and kissed him with more force and love. But if at all possible, apology.

Jim was apologizing for leaving his dear and watching what his 'death' did to him. Sebastian Moran was Jim Moriarty's world and it will forever be that way.

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Hope you liked it! But I think I should end it here. (Comment if you want a sequel!)

THANK YOU FOR READING.