Ricky Dillon's Little Sister (O2L fanfiction)

Panic Attack

"You're a prick!" I yell at the top of my lungs at the guy I thought I was in love with.

"You're just mad because you know I'm the only guy who will ever make the mistake of asking a good for nothing bitch like you out!" Jason said with venom in his word.

I fall to the ground and grab my wrist trying to calm down. He knew what was happening, I'm about to have a panic attack. But why should he care he just dumped me. I heard his truck wheels slide across the concrete confirming my thoughts. I started to cry, and then my breathing picked up, the last thing I remember is having someone yell my name before I blacked out.

I woke up in my bedroom while my brother held me in his arms. It looked like he was asleep so I started to stand up when a sharp pain went through my head. I fell to the ground and started to cry again. I soon realized what happened; I had a panic attack because my douche of a boyfriend, my bad my ex-boyfriend, broke up with me. I just realized how stupid that sounded. He broke my heart why should I have been so upset; I know the things he said weren't true so why do I care so much?

When I finally escaped my thoughts I realized I had walked into my bathroom and was holding a loose razor blade to my wrist. I dropped the blade before I dug it into my skin. What am I doing, I promised Ricky I would never do that again.

I took a few shaky breaths and pulled my long brown hair into a messy bun. I grabbed a rag and ran it over my face. The warm water wasted away all the smeared make up and dried tears. I looked back up in the mirror. My eyes were green and puffy, you'll learn over time that they are kind of like mood rings, when I'm sad or mad they turn a light green color. The rest of the time they are plain blue.

My brother, Ricky, has always said he was jealous of my eyes, but only because I have mom's eyes and he has dad's. So his are just a plain brown color. I wish I could trade him eyes because it's hard to hide your emotions with two big green things on your face.

I looked back into the mirror and realized I was wearing one of Ricky's old shirts and a pair of my fluffy night pants. It might sound weird but I got really scared. But think about It, I wasn't wearing this when I passed out. Also there are no girls in my house. So that means Ricky must have changed my clothes for me.

My parents are on a business trip and it's just me and Ricky for the summer. But I don't mind I love having my brother here, he lives In California with all the o2l boys. So anytime I get to spend with him is amazing. I love talking to him about his life with the guys. I've never meet them, but they sound like the kind of people that could always make you smile no matter what was happening, just like Ricky.

"Ash where are you?" I heard Ricky ask as he woke up

"In here" I yelled back in response.

"What are you doing?" he asked sudden fear in his voice

I unlock the door and open it before going back to washing my face. Ricky came and leaned against the door frame. "Ash let me-" I held out my wrist before he could finish the question. Slowly he grabbed them and counted 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. He then let go of my wrists and hugged me repeating the four words that always makes me happy , "I love you ash" he said and kissed my forehead

I looked up at him a kissed him on the cheek, "I love you to Ricky."