Dark places deep within my thoughts
Dark, dark places only I can walk
A place where a glimpse of doubt is multiplied by dread
A silent distress of hopelessness confined within my head
Positives are worthless where negatives survive
It churns you up and spits you out, the darkness won’t subside
The sorrow is consuming, the nights are petrifying
The days are wished away as my mind continues dying
I want all of this to stop, but there isn’t a chance it will
My body has given up on me, and has stopped
My mind is rotting, causing the migraines
The screaming in my head is so shrill
The rest of my body feels the pains
I did drugs and I drank alcohol to mask my pain
And it never helped
It just made everything worse
I used to stuff myself with food, purge it, and then starve myself
I didn’t mean to slowly kill my body, but I did
And I am paying for it
It hurts to sleep, to sit, to lie down.
I can’t ever think straight
Trying to not hate
Trying not to drown
My body is just trying to kill me
And I know exactly why
My body has always been there for me
Taken the hits from fights, the bruises and cuts from sports
Given me all the energy it could muster
And what did I do to repay it?
I starved myself, cut my skin open in hopes to rid myself of the demons inside
I never gave back the energy it gave me
And now I am paying for it
Dear body,
I am forever in debt to you
You have given me so much and for nothing in return
I should have paid you back, but I never did
And I’m sorry for that
I hope that in the future you and I will be able to get along
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To Inspire, Is To Achieve
PoetryDepression, anxiety, eating disorders, abusive relationships, love, and withdrawls are all so complicated. I struggled with all of these. I wrote about them in hopes to heal myself. So, we'll see if it works. TRIGGER WARNING: IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED B...
