StreetFighter

Chapter 18

LAST CHAPTER IN THIS BOOK.

'okay. Deep breaths mere. Deep breaths' Ella cooed

'GAH' i threw the nearest object to me which happens to be my phone. Rest in peace.

'This is not the time to be making jokes mere. Focus on the damn target and shoot!'

'Shudup' i grumbled and went to look at the damage id done to my phone. My poor poor phone

Ella sighed and muttered some colorful eords and entirely stopped talking to me. Just like alec

Its been a month now. You know, since hes been in the hospital. I havent checked on him because i figured he wouldnt want to talk to the girl that almost murdered him. If he lives, that is. I also didnt attend school the past couple of weeks. Ill be okay im not called a nerd for nothing

'Eh' its just i little crack, itll be fine to use' i muttered and wiped the little peices of glass off the surface of the screen

Ive been trying not to think about alec too much, key word: trying

I mean, ive gone compeletly nuts by now, it wouldnt really matter. I started rippimg my hair out of my scalp, its a bad habit

Crystal is doing fine, were still talking but i told her not to tell me anything about alec or his condition

Shes doing okay

And now its my turn to say how im feeling. Okay, well i havent been too good but definatly better than the past couple of weeks. I started cutting my wrist, but then i thought to myself

Bloody hell! This is like getting period blood on the floor. I cant!

No, thats not actually what i thought. I know im not funny, good effort though. Its the thought that counts

Anyway back to my 'horror movie type thing' life im living. All i get in my life is action, i know people like the action but i just feel like its too much? Its like a cliffhanger every damn day and im just hanging on the tip of the cliff waiting for the next day to finish.

Its a cycle, really

I have had suicidal thought before and i still feel them lingering in my brain but not as much as before, they dont really have an effect on me.. yet

I keep getting images or flashbacks of mine and alecs memories together, the good and the bad. Its like im sitting at the front row of the movie theater watching an action movie

Seriously.

I also keep getting dreams about us, about killing myself, about turning into a murderer.

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I sat at the uneven rock beneath me and sucked in a breath i hadent realized i was holding. I looked down the cliff

A beautiful scene. Shades of green and pale blue mixed together to form the perfect clear water hunderdeds of feet below me

Jump. I heard a voice saying in my head

I really am crazy. Look at me, you wouldnt think id gone through this much if you took one quick glance at me while walking down the busy streets

Jump off. What will you lose? No one loves you, everyone is gone. Everyone ends up leaving you alone. I know how it feels. Just one quick jump and all the pain will go away. Youll go to your parents, dont you want to say hello to them after all these years? Youre hopeless. You are weak. No one cares if you die, it will actual be beneficial
Do it. Jump. Are you scared?

'Im not scared' i answered that nasty voice, the nasty voice that was starting to make me believe every single thing it says.

Then jump. It replied

'Fine'
Maybe it will actaually be for the best? Maybe if i go they will be happier? If i leave theyd probably celebrate my death. All i bring is trouble, trouble follows me everwhere its like my dang shadow

Okay. Im gonna jump on the count of three. Bye alec, bye crystal i love you.

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I stood up and put one leg infront of the other. I Released a breath i was holding and stepped into thin air.

I felt someone trying to push me back on the safe ground, i quickly turned my head to look at the person.

Alec

I wish i could go back 5 minutes ago when i was peacfully sitting on the rocks. Maybe then alec wouldve sat next to me and chatted with me.

What did i do? I want to go back! but it was too late. I was already falling.

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THE END .

This is the end of this book. I know i still have to sort out alot of things and its really confusing but i just dont have the same feeling i used to have when i first began writing this book. Maybe ill do a re-written version in the future? Who knows. But for now this is it. Im only 13 and i have a very busy life(not really). Im sorry to all the loyal readers that enjoy reading the book.

I love you and bye bye! Amd sorry again.

BYEEE