Random little writings

What if

Often I think "what if" and honestly this probably applies to many other people as well. "What if i don't make the team" or "what if i mess up". "What if's" are included a lot of our decisions, which can be both good and bad, and it also depends on the person.

For example, you want to ask for some money from your parents or a raise from your boss, some people might see this as easy to do and think it doesn't need any overthinking whereas others will spend a longer time thinking about the possible outcomes than they would have spent actually asking. 

Its also a time waster in a way, but is it really. I overthink things A LOT, sometimes to the point where its too late to do the thing anyways, kind of a problem. I think it has a lot to do with worrying or anxiety, like i mentioned before, overthinking the outcomes of one situation. Even though it would be easier to go with whatever happens, and live with it, how bad could it be? Pretty bad according to the little voice in the back of my head "everything will go wrong". 

Anyways, since i got so very off topic, lets get back on track. "what ifs" apply to more then just future decision making, they also come into play with thinking about the past or present. "what if, i would have talked to that one person more often" or "what if i read this book" or "what if i buy this ice cream". so many things could impact our lives in huge or in small ways, and often we, or at least I, regret doing, or not doing somethings. Should we regret them though, whats done is done right? If it happened there's no changing it but was it really that big a deal, i don't know maybe it was. 

"What would happen if" exist too, those bring people into their imaginations. "what if the sky were green" or "What if people could fly". while neither of those things were too complex or super creative ideas, the stories and ideas that could come from them would be so diverse and creative and different. 

Again i'm so off track I've ended up in a ditch on Pluto. To be completely honest i don't think there even was a track to begin with. So basically there are a lot of "what ifs" and some could be a good thing whereas others, not so much. Anyways i wrote a thing today and it exists now, i don't have any rhyme or reason behind it but its a thing.