My Little Swan

Youre gonna get it

"Regina open the door!" Mal yelled desperately as she knocked on Regina's door. The brunette stumbled around in her drunken haze and made sure the door was locked "Go away" she croaked out and she slid down the wall next to the door. "Damn it Regina" Mal hissed and she kicked at the door and then again until it opened. tear stained cheeks came into view and Mal's heart ached. "Regina what is going on?!" she pleaded with her to answer. The empty pill bottle in her hand fell to the floor and her eyes rolled back in her head and Mal caught her. "Jesus Christ REGINA!" She yelled and she stuck her fingers down the brunettes throat trying to force the pills out of her system.

A gurgling/gagging noise filled the room and Mal turned regina on her side and the brunette threw up a bunch of pills and alcohol. And Mal rubbed her back. The brunette bawled her eyes out "just let me die!" Regina begged and Mal shook her head "no!" Regina fought against her hold and she tightened her grip around the brunette. "Maleficent just let me die. Why are you even here!" She yelled and sobbed trying to push the blonde away. "Because i fucking love you, you idiot!" She snapped and Regina looked up at her with terrified tear filled eyes. "Because I love you." She repeated softer and the brunette collapsed in her arms.
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Regina woke up in a cold sweat at the memory. The memory of being in Mals arms, of her actually Caring. Regina's hand shot out to touch the other side of the bed and she whimpered feeling the cold sheets. She wasn't use to sleeping alone. Turning on her side she grabbed her phone, she has so many messages from Mal apologizing and promising to be better but she just couldn't.. not right now.

Scrolling through her messages she came upon a voice message from her little swan.

"Regina.. if you're avoiding me because of what happened then  fine.. but at least let me know you are okay! It's been nearly a week without hearing from you and I'm scared. I love you Regina please.. why won't you talk to me? We can forget about what happened and just be friends. Remember what you said to me? You need me.. well I need you. Please Regina.." Emma's voice was so broken and her voice cracked. A sob echoed through the phone.

Regina put the phone down and closed her eyes tight. She had taken some personal time off to worry about herself, but She missed Emma too, more than even Mal but she was so confused and she had no answers for the green eyed girl... she didn't know what to say. Maybe she should give Emma a chance. Maybe she.. Regina couldn't fathom the thought of herself actually being genuinely happy. She'd been so broken for so long... she didn't know how to let love in.

Mal had long since closed her off to such things. Over the course of this last week Regina thought about her relationship with Mal and she didn't see how the relationship could be fixed. Yes In a way Regina did love Mal, they had spent seven years together but the damage was done. She had met up with her a few times over the week to see her but all Regina could do was be jumpy and afraid around her. She was tired of being afraid, she just wanted love.

Glancing at the clock on the bedside table she realized it was nearly midnight. Regina bit her lip looked at Emma's name and sighed.

R- Meet me in 10 minutes at the docks near your house.

She had hit send before she could stop herself and she got out of bed and she threw on a jacket and sweats and she walked toward the pier. Maybe it was because it was late she answered. Maybe it was because she thought Emma would be asleep and she wouldn't come. Deep down though, she knew it was because she missed the quirky blonde and she couldn't handle being away from her any longer.

Emma grabbed her phone hearing it buzz and in her sleepy haze she ready the message and she bolted out of bed throwing on clothes and she ran... she ran toward the dock as fast as she could, as if her life depended on it and her heart skipped a beat seeing Regina's outline sitting on the end of the pier. Catching her breath Emma slowed and walked toward her "Gina.." she called out in a whisper and Regina tensed but slowly turned.

Regina gasped as Emma came into contact and she burst into tears "Emma" she whimpered and the blonde came forward and wrapped her arms around the brunette and they sunk down onto the dock. "Where have you been?" Emma whispered and Regina hid her face in Emma's neck inhaling her scent. She didn't answer and Emma sighed "look.. if this is about what happened, Regina, I'm sorry. We can pretend it never happened. I miss my bestfriend" she whispered and Regina pulled back to look at her. Sad brown eyes met sad green ones and she leant forward and pressed her full lips to Emma's thins ones and she lost all the air in her lungs.

Emma gasped and kissed her back for a moment and Regina laid her forehead against Emma's and closed her eyes "I don't want to do that" she whispered. "I can't do that" slowly pulling away from the comfort the blonde gave her she crossed her legs and looked out at the sea.

"What do you want?" Emma asked her, Regina shook her head and sucked her lips into her mouth and bit them for a moment. "Do you still wanna go to storybrooke?" She asked quietly. Emma's eyes widened, "Yes.. if I can go with you" she said honestly, unsure of where this conversation is going, it was quite late after all.

Regina began thinking. She could try this right? She deserved it? What if she took Emma to storybrooke and they had their 'romance' there.. if it didn't work they could chalk it up to their past and go back to being friends.. but Regina knew for sure that once she started a relationship with her lost love, she couldn't go back to being friends, she loves this girl to much to 'just' be friends. She closed her eyes and took a breath, and nodded, and she couldn't help herself "I'm asking you to go to go Storybrooke with me Emma."

She turned to face the blonde and Emma looked into her favorite pair of brown eyes and saw the hidden war inside her. "When?" She asked looking out at the water.
"Monday, I wanna go for a week."

Emma bit her lip in thought "what about Mal? Can you get away from her for that long safely?" Regina nodded "yes, it's already been arranged." Emma didn't need to know about what happened, not right now.

"Okay, I'll schedule the time off when I get home.." Regina smiled just a bit "good.. I'm driving, like hell we are driving in the deathtrap of yours" she said trying to make the mood lighter. Emma's jaw dropped in mock offense "do not hate on my bug. She is VERY reliable" the blonde said scrunching her face adorable and Regina in turn rolled her eyes.

"Reliable at breaking down and being unsafe" she winked and Emma playfully glared at her "one more big insult and you're going into the water Mills" she said trying to be serious and Regina barked a laugh. "You/wouldn't/dare" she said using her best authoritative tone.

"Try me" Emma said seating her phone on the dock and she reached over and took Regina's placing it with hers. Brown eyes studied green ones as she thought of a comeback. "Miss Swan I would rather walk to storybrooke rather than get into the yellow monstrosity" she said and Emma nodded and waited a moment looking out at the water in mock thought. Regina had a smug smile on her face.

'I knew she was bluffing' she thought but in the next moment Emma tackled her into the water, the blonde falling in with her. She let out a scream that was quickly muffled by water and when they emerged Regina turned to the blood and splashed water at her with a shriek "EMMA SWAN YOU ARE SO DEAD!" The teachers high pitched scream filled the otherwise silent air and Regina lunged for her tackling her back under water...