So i haven't ever been in a relationship before the one I'm in now. I've always been like I don't need a boyfriend to be happy, I can get through things on my own. And I mean no boyfriend means you can call any boy cute whenever.
But now I'm in a relationship and I'm not sure that I should be.
So I'm dating a really sweet guys right now. He is older then me, he's s junior and I'm a freshman. Yeah I know it sounds like I'm that freshman but I'm not I swear!
We took it slow, like I asked we talked for deadass two and a half months before we started dating. It was hard for me to get comfortable with him but I did and then we started dating.
So a month after we started dating he kissed me. And to me it was horrible but I thought I didn't like it because it was awkward and it was my first kiss. So we didn't kiss again till this week and he kissed me this week, three days in a row.
So I realized that I don't like it, I'm not a big fan of kissing. It weird and I just don't like it, and like pda, no. So I knew I had to tell him because I couldn't just keep kissing him everyday and not feel comfortable.
So I did and he wasn't cool with it the way I hoped. I wrote him a long paragraph telling him how it's not him it's just I don't really like the kissing. And he responds," um...okay." "If that's what you want, alright."
So I asked him is that's all he had to say and he told me like he likes kissing me but if that's want I want."
So obviously his response wasn't what I hoped and we have talked since I told him that.
But I just think we might want different things because he is older than me and has been in more relationships.
Maybe I'm not really to be with someone that much older then me or maybe I'm just stressing myself out.
I'll update y'all
