Forever yours, Never mine

Chapter Five

I woke up, and Kellin was gone. Honestly, I thought I had just dreamed the whole thing up, until I went to get out of bed and Kellin was standing the the doorway of my room with a glass of sweet ice tea.

" Nope, lay back down. " He smiled.
" Why? I'm okay. "
" Do you not remember what happened today? "
" No.. what? " Kellin handed me the tea.
" Nothing. "
Kellin sat next to me, and held my left hand as I drank the tea with my right.
" I didn't leave you, you just started coughing and I wanted to get you something to drink. "
" Oh, well, thank you. "
I sat the glass on the nightstand and tried to piece together everything that actually did happen that he didn't want to talk about. It wasn't working, and deep inside, I really didn't want to remember. It bothered me that I couldn't remember right off the top of my head, but I just decided to lay back down. Kellin wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead.
" Can I ask you something? " Kellin let go just a little bit.
" Sure.. " I turned over to look at him.
" I know I didn't do this properly, and I just kind of, made moves on you. I really apologize, it was probably wrong of me, I just, I really like you Olivia, and I don't know why, but I feel somehow attached to you. I feel like I need to protect you, and I don't want to let anyone else have you. So, will you be mine? " Kellin started blushing.
" Of course, I will. Just don't let Mel-, " he cut me off.
" Who cares? I told you I'm not allowing you to ever step one foot back in that school, or any other school around here, and if need be, you can come stay at my place until she cools down. "
" Melanie doesn't ' cool down . ' "
" I'll make her. "
Kellin seemed to always know just what to say to shut me up, part of me loved it, but part of me also disagreed with it.
" Okay.. "
I laid back in his arms and tried my best to go back to sleep. Every single time I'd even be close to falling asleep, I'd hear a noise. The front door, bugs hitting the window, cars outside, my aunt cursing at her boss over the phone, anything and everything. I pretended to be awake, I knew Kellins right arm would be falling asleep any time now.
I kept my eyes closed, and my body relaxed. Kellin eased my head off of him, and my entire body over just a little bit. He pulled the covers back over me, and he stood up. He kissed my forehead, and began whispering in my ear ,
" I think I love you, Olivia. "
Of course Kellin thought I was asleep and didn't hear him, but I heard every word. It made my heart beat faster, and it made me get butterflies in my gut. It felt amazing, and I'd never been able to feel that before.
Kellin walked out of the bedroom, and I heard the front door open, and then close, and then I heard his car turn on and pull out of the driveway. He left me. I jumped up and ran straight for the shower. I did my thing for about an hour, and when I got out I put my hair up. Just a messy ol' bun, didn't really compliment me, but I didn't want to shower while Kellin was here, because I didn't want him to think he needed to leave or anything.
I threw on some sweats and a tee-shirt, which wasn't complimenting either, but I was in a hurry. I never knew when Kellin was just going to appear, or call, or anything. I thought it was sweet that he cared, though. Nobody ever actually cared about me like Kellin did. It meant a lot to me, but I was trying really, really, hard not to let him see it.
It wasn't that I wanted him to think I was playing hard to get or anything, but I didn't want him to think I was broken, or easy. I may be broken, but I'm not easy. I felt like I could be myself around Kellin, and that I didn't have to hide. I swear, I wish I knew exactly what he thought every moment that he spent with me.
Just the thought of what Melanie would do to me killed me, of course by now, I knew what happened today. All it took was one look in the mirror, and everything came back to me. The painting of the house, the black eye, the bloody nose, Kellin rescuing me, every little detail. Even every kick, and Melanies facial expressions. The hate in her eyes.
I had no idea what Kellin was playing, the whole taking me out of school thing seemed impossible, but I didn't know if he could actually do it. Unless he talked my aunt into it, which she'd probably laugh in his face, because it sounds crazy. He wouldn't tell my aunt I was getting bullied, because he knows I wouldn't want her to know. Honestly, she didn't even notice the house got repainted.
I couldn't tell if her memory was going bad, or if it was those drugs she was on. I was assuming a little bit of both, but there's really no telling. She was dingy all the way around, it was terrible. I'm surprised she even remembered where she lived, or that my parents were dead, or even that I was supposed to be here.
She never knew what day of the week it was, she just went along with everything. She even randomly showed up at work sometimes, and she never got fired. It was weird how her life worked, but somehow, it did. She wasn't organized or anything, when she wanted to do something, she did it. Unless she was too drugged up.
She didn't know that I knew that she did drugs, I mean it was clear, but I never told her, or asked her about it. I never found her stashes, but I knew. It wasn't really easy to hide. She was thin and everything, so when she had the munchies, I knew. Especially since she practically never ate.
After two hours went by, and I was right in the middle of playing a song on my guitar, Kellin walked through my doorway.
" Hey, sorry I left earlier, I needed to take care of something, "
" Mind if I ask what ? "
" I went to the school , and I made it clear that you won't be back. " he smiled at me.
" That's great! "
Kellin sat down in the floor beside me, and listened to me play guitar. He sang every song I played, and his voice was truly amazing. I didn't know he sang, but he did, and when he did, I swear he sounded like an angel. My fingers started hurting, so I put my guitar on the bed beside me.
" You're amazing, "
" No need to lie, "
" Who said I was lying? " he smiled.
" I did. " Kellin stood up, and he grabbed my hands.
" Oh? Well, that's only because you can't hear yourself play. " Kellin started playing a slow dancing song on his phone.
" Dance with me, Olivia? " he smiled.
" Of course. " I was in terrible clothes, and looked even worse, but it was okay.
We started slow dancing, and it was almost as if every problem I'd ever faced was disappearing, like my life was perfect right now. Even though I knew it wasn't possible. I wished we could dance forever, he held on to me like I was glass, or like I would break if he squeezed me too hard, it was precious.
My aunt opened my door and ruined the moment, she squinted her eyes, and me and Kellin let go.
" That music sucks, play something worth listening to! " my aunt slammed the door back, and me and Kellin both laughed once we knew she made it down the stairs.
" Oh, just for the record, I'll be over tomorrow to help you with your school work. I ordered you some books, and I'll just do the homeschool with you, that way you're not alone, and Melanie and her friends can't skip school to try to terrorize you, because I'll be here with you. "
" Sounds great, but what about your friends? "
" I don't have friends in this town, most boys here are too city for me, I'd rather spend time with a girl like you. "
" Oh my God, I mean, I don't wanna t- "
" Don't worry, " Kellin leaned in and kissed me.
" Look, I need to handle some things back at home, want me to come back later, or wait until morning? "
" Come back to me. "
" I will, I lo- , " he paused.
" You what? "
" Nothing, nothing. Bye, beautiful. " he winked at me.
" Bye ... " I tried not to sound depressed, I didn't want him to think I was relying on him.
Kellin walked out the door, and I heard each door open and close, and then the sound of his car drift away. I wanted to cry, and I didn't even know why. He already meant so much to me, but I knew he'd be back, he had to. I picked my phone up, and he texted me, ' I love you, Olivia. '
I didn't want him to know I read it, because I had to wait a little while before I could say it back, so I just marked the message as unread, and I laid back in my bed against my pillow. I picked my iPod up, and started playing music. I felt my body relax, and my eyes began to close. I was just hoping Kellin wouldn't leave me tonight, something inside me wanted him, it wanted him right here, right now, badly.