You wake up and see Gerard missing, you look around and find him trying to overdose, you smack the pills out of his hand and hug him tightly, he pushes you away,you look at him,he had tears in his eyes,you help him up off the floor, you lay him in the bed,you call Mikey, he doesn't pick up,you try the mental hospital, Gerard says "hey y/n,baby I don't I need help I'm fine,so just let me be me" you look at him and say "you need people to talk to about this stuff" he grabs your wrist and pulls you close to him,he looks into your eyes and kisses you,you push him away, and say "I really wanna help you!"
Gerard looks at you and says "you can't help me cause its who I am" you walk out the room and pace in the hallway, Gerard walks out the room and pulls you close to him,he pushes you against the wall,he roughly bites different places on your neck into he finds your sweet spot,you let out a soft moan and try not to give into him,you push him away, you walk outside,you think about smoking a cigarette, you walk into the house and look for a cigarette, you ask Gerard for one,he says "I'm not giving you one,you're too damn beautiful for one" you roll your eyes, you find a bottle of vodka, you take one spit and feel like you're going to throw up, Gerard grabs the bottle and drinks it all, you look at him and think "what the fuck,that shit is fucking gross and this bitch" Gerard picks you up and throws you over his shoulder,"to the bedroom"
He flops you on the bed,he drinks some and leaves it in his mouth, he kisses you and puts it in your mouth, he says "just swallow it" you swallow it and think "oh my god, its like I'm being stabbed in the throat" he finds your sweet spot and abuses it, he slides his hand down your chest and into your pants, he deeply fingers you, you slightly arch your back, you let out a soft moan, he removes his fingers,he gets up, he says"i-i-i can't do this anymore..." You say "so you don't love me anymore" he says "well I just don't have feelings for you anymore" you get up ,you get your shoes on and walk out the door, he runs after you, you say " just leave me alone, I don't have time to deal with someone that doesn't love me" he looks at you and sheds a tear, you look at him tightly hug him,he says "I didn't mean what I said, I fucking love you, but I want to live my life how I want it to be" you say "fine I'll let you be you " he hugs you, he goes to lay down.
You clean up the place a bit then head to lay down with Gerard, you lay close to him, you squeeze him tightly and he kisses your forehead,you fall asleep, you wake up around five and get ready for your new job.
