Living with a Ghoul

Chapter 2: Get your life together

When I got home I see Aaron had let himself in. Aaron has never been good at being patient. I set Hans down and Aaron lights a cigarette and cuts his eyes at me. "I'm guessing you're a little pissed huh?" I shift my weight and Aaron laughs some. "Come on sweetie, let's go talk." Aaron says surprisingly nicely. I'm a little concerned yet relieved that he wasn't yelling at me for not answering his text messages.

I apparently spoke too soon because once we were in the car I got an ear full of complaining and scolding. Aaron has always been like a big brother/sister since he's also super feminine.

Note: Aaron is gay if you haven't caught on 😉

We sit at the bar and all I do is drink. Aaron watches me not seeming all too surprised. I've been held up in my room for months I need a drink. "Damn slow down you'll be drunk before I am." Aaron sips his beer and I lazily sit my bottle down. I hold my head in my hand and watch a small ant try to make its way back to the floor. I haven't really talked much since we got here. Aaron can read me like an open book so he didn't even hesitate to ask, "What are you doing with your life Gabby?"

I cut my brown eyes at him and shrug.

"That isn't an answer. Yeah sure you dumped that Roche of a boyfriend and I got a few hits in causing some eternal bleeding but you should be jumping for joy right now and going about your life like you used to. Happily."

"Aaron you don't get it. I loved Ryan, and he cheated on me. It still hurt. Plus I'm an orphan now. I used to walk around like everything was fine but on the inside I was falling apart." I lover my head into the bar and Aaron scoots closer to me. He pats my head as if I was a lost puppy which causes me too look up at him with an irritated expression.

"I'm sorry alright. But, you can't change the past...the only thing you can do right now is move on and learn how to let it go. It's gonna take some time yeah but it'll be fine because I'm gonna be right here for you okay?" Aaron gives me a small smile. I still look at him sort of emotionless. It was easy for him to say. He still had his parents, he still has a boyfriend who loves and cares about him. I feel myself begin to pout and Aaron continues.

"You need to get your self together, better yet get your life together. You can't waste it sulking and crying. You need to be concerned about your well being and your feelings. If it makes you feel any better I'm off tomorrow we can spend the whole day together." Aaron suggests and I nod in agreement he's a really good friend. What did I do to deserve him? He's too amazing.

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I toss and turn trying to fall back to sleep. I was doing good for a while but I had a horrible nightmare. I've been having nightmares a lot lately.

I keep feeling as if I was trapped in a corner. My heart wouldn't stop pounding and it kept creeping closer and closer to me. I didn't even know what "it" was. Its body seemed to move so quick I didn't know where to look. Its eyes seemed to glow a pale white and its mouth was stained with blood. I couldn't scream or move, just watch and await my doom.

I wake up in a cold sweat and breathing heavily. My fiery red hair falls in my eyes as I try to calm my heart. Tears streaming down my face I look over at Aaron who was passed out on my couch in the corner of my room. I slowly trudge to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. I constantly repeat to myself. "I'm okay I'm okay." But really I wasn't. I sink to my knees and just cry. My whimpers turn into sobs and before I knew it Aaron was kneeling in front of me trying to calm me down.

I tell him about my dream and he pulls me into a warm hug. He strokes my hair and I cry even more. I didn't know what to do anymore. I just wanted it all to stop. I just wanted my mom, I wanted my dad, I wanted a man to love me. I just wanted to give up and stop trying to make my life better because it was just a piece of shit.

"Hey, hey look at me." Aaron tilts my chin upward so I could look him in the eyes. I cut my eyes to the floor. I hate when he sees me like this. Its embarrassing. "Gabriela look at me. I'm right here, okay nothing is gonna happen to you so please just trust me. Trust that I'm gonna here and you'll be alright." Aaron grips my wrist and I breathe heavily while shaking my head.

"No-no,"

"Yes you can please just calm down please." Aaron pleads and I feel my heartbeat begin to slow. I need to trust him, he's been here for me since we were kids. I nod and we stand. I hug Aaron and whimper. He continues stroking my hair and humming to me. It was a familiar song my mom used to sing me when I can't sleep. I hummed it all the time and I guess he caught onto it. I love Aaron so much. He's a real best friend.

After an hour I sit at the dining table and stare down at my coffee. I could hear Aaron on the phone with is boyfriend Thomas. Tommy didn't sound too happy that Aaron didn't come home last night. Aaron and Tommy argue a lot but they end up making love in the end. They're a strange couple but they love each other. I want that...god knows I want that. Aaron loves me yes, but its a friendship type of love.

I want a man to love me the way a husband loves a wife. I want someone who I can get mad at but in the end I can talk to them. I want a man that can not only make love to my body, but to my mind. Ryan seems like the type at first but...he wasn't the one for me. I take a deep breath and sip my coffee. Alright, Aaron wants me to get my life together...I'll do just that.