No Goodbyes To You

Sing To You

Time rains by-
Shards of glass from the sky.
Stabbed all around, we all fall down-
Knees meet dust on the ground.

Each passing moment is a talk of lies,
Unmeaning promises and only more pain. Each piece of fallen glass
Is the time far lost and all the pleading cries,
For it to start over again. Some thing in hand, it does turn at last.

But it was the end we all must meet,
Bones to dust on which we seed.

Knives of lost chances rain
Taking away all the blood and pain.

That hollow look, a white corpse and soot-
All away in time's one mighty hoot.
No books remain, also no name.
No footstep and no heartbeat is tame.

Frozen midway this life was.
Still. Drilling through all of time's laws.
A blink, a twitch-just anything to show,
But "No one survived"- Everything's so slow.

Then, with no note, an image simply flashed.
From years ago- a bright gay day:
The sound of chaotic waters close by thrashing
Against a cliff. Blue.
I hear you somewhere laughing.
I call out, "Are you, true?"
You glanced- your face lit in a smile- and reality crashed.
Just grains of sand- all over again. Too much to bear, I again just lay.

I cried and cried as memories, in my mind rained
Each harder to catch, to save and to see.
Too fast, too soon. They fall as you fell- stained
With nothing but pain and where there were pieces of you are now pieces taken from me.
All that remains there are only gaping holes
Right in the centre of all my bones.

With no balance and no hold,
I want to lose it all. For
I need to see you once more, hold
And  keep you safe forevermore.

Though you on and on still breathe and live
In my mind- It's not enough. Can't you see, I'm already torn?
I need to see your eyes with the lively light in the nightmare I saw leave
I need to see you happy again like when you were just born.

You came-So very small and fragile,
And Came with warmth as the life with winter's sun.
And again I'll teach you to walk with your hand in mine, to be agile
And strong, so unbroken you return be it words or a gun.

If you've loved me even half as you I have,
Come back, come back here. For I save
All that belongs to you and breathe it in for the monstrous knot in my heart.
Come because you'd taken away my soul, my heart
And my breath when I'd held you in my arms for the first time.
Yesterday on the tree you so much loved, I hung your precious wind chime.

Though rusted now, still makes sounds as sweet as a bird's.
Come because as you'd said "Dad, I can't imagine growing up without you"
I can't grow old without my baby, too! If you are here, you heard
Right-Spare that quiet peace and me this haunting pain. Selfish?Yes, but only just for you.

Please come back. Now living hurts-I can't let you forever hide!
I promise, I'll get whatever you wish for without any fight.
I only desire to come up there to make a path that'll guide
You out from wherever you've got lost amidst the lights in the night.

I know you are out there.
          Somewhere.
I know because I feel your tiny hands
Here, on my cheek where mine would always land
On yours, years ago when I held you whenever you cried, under the sheep wool
Covers still lying there on your bed, and everyday as I dropped you to the school.

I need to feel your heart beat again, tuned all right.
I need to ensure you're unhurt and are alright.

I look at the sky every night, I know the brightest star
Is you! But again I shouted, at the woman- just awoken, who
Broken, though unfairly too, won't ever know how much for her you'd care.
Forgive me. But I did that, only because I love you.

I'll give up what life still remains to see you. I promise you.
Come back and we can all live again for years in peace
Come here my life, once last so I can sing to you
So you may for always sleep and rest forever in peace.