You're all I think about. Nothing can distract me. And if something does, it's not for very long. It's gotten so bad that in the middle of a conversation I just stop and stare cause something reminded me of you. Someone will mention blue eyes and yours are the first I picture. Or tall, and how you tower over me. Siblings, big bro. Smile. Glasses. Hair. Voice. Songs. Everything reminds me of you. I was in chorus, and I looked over my shoulder for a second. And I had to look back cause I thought I saw you. And I don't know why, I know you don't go to school with me. But I saw a guy with curly brown hair and glasses, and I thought it was you. You have taken over my thoughts. You're like a drug. Once I have you I can't live without you. And doing so is torture. It's like everything else is a blur. I've missed so much. And I can't do anything about it. You are a poison at this point. You're killing me. I don't feel anything anymore. You are killing me. And when I do fall off the cliff you held me from for so long. I hope you know that I do love you. And this is your fault. You caused me to do this. Nothing else. You did this. And I'm sorry.
