TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of anxiety, suicidal thoughts, attempted bodily harm.
Jodie's POV
I wake up to the sound of music blasting through the floor boards. I rub my eyes and sit up to check my phone, 85 miscalls all together 21 texts and 3 voice notes. I lock my phone and walk to the door, cracking it open ' I won't give up! On Us, even if the skies get rough' filled my ears.
I walk down the stairs.
" CAUSE EVEN THE STARS THEY BURN! SOME EVEN FALL TO THE EARTH, WE'VE GOT A LOT TO LEAR-" I enter the living room and the two stop sinning and turn towards me.
" hello Jodie-Jade Lester, my wonderful daughter. Come join us" Phil stuttered, obviously drunk.
I sit on the sofa opposite Phil and Dan .
" uncle Dan do you have a clue what this is about?" I say hoping he's sober.
" I'm as in the blue as you" he says swapping sofas so we're both facing Phil now.
" proposed, Jamie,today "his sentence in a couple words but enough to understand it,
" your proposing to Jamie today?" he nods and slumps down on the couch.
"are you nervous?" My uncle says walking over and placing a hand on his shoulder.
he buries his head in his hands and nods once more, " what if she says no?" he says sitting up and looking at us with fear in his eyes. I walk over as well and sit at the other side of him, pulling him into a hug. "Dad, why would she say no? she loves you." he pulls out of the hug and looks into my eyes. "what if she isn't ready, she may love me but what if she doesn't want that right now?" at this point Dan and i's eyes were tearing up, I've never seen his so nervous before. not since he asked Jamie out in the first place. I remember that day clearly.
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6years ago- Phil's pov
I take a walk in the park after a long day, It was JJ's Birthday party and it got a bit crowded.
I act like a very social person but I cant deal with crowded places it makes me anxious and I have trouble breathing.
Its cold but its southing, and I'm used to it by now. England doesn't get summer that often so this is normal. I reach the park entrance looking fro a place to sit.
He spots an old wooden bench sat next to an old bin. At this point he didn't care and took a seat, reaching for his phone only to find he had left it on the table. He sighs and rubs his eyes. He looks up taking in the night sky, the light blue colour slowly turning to Black. He shuts his eyes and leans back only to feel the brush of something on his arm.
He looks across from him to see a brown haired woman around the same age as him. He smiles and turns back not wanting to start conversation because he's not in the best of moods and he doesn't want to annoy her. Only to remember he hasn't got his phone so he can't tell the time.
He looks up once more to see her staring at him, they link eyes and don't look away for around 5 seconds.
She smiles her dimples popping out clearly, her Cristal while teeth sparkling.
She pushes a strand of her hair behind her ear and Phil can't comprehend how gorgeous she was,,
He remembers what he needed to ask her, " Excuse me, erm can I ask you the time it's just I left my phone and I need to get back to my daughters party before it ends" he says getting her attention agin.
" it's 9:36, may I ask why you left your girlfriend might be worried" she say turning to him looking up from her phone.
" to answer your question: one, I have anxiety and it was getting crowded, and I hate cramped spaces so I came for a walk and some peace.
And two: no she wouldn't" she looks at me confused, about the second answer obviously.
" she will be worried..." she points out for my name.
" Phil, and she won't be worried because I don't have a girlfriend, my daughter was adopted by me and my flat mate, I'm her dad and he's her uncle." She nods and it goes quiet again.
" you seem nice you know" she said still looking at the sky with Phil doing the same,
" No I don't know, what do you mean?" I ask turning so I'm facing her.
" You- you seem like the person who's smile could brighten any persons day, and someone who puts other before himself, as if seeing them happy made you happy" he smiled, and she quickly spoke again.
" see, its gorgeous" she says shyly
He smiled agin blushing but turned his head so she wouldn't see,
" can I ask why your out here?" He says changing the subject away from him,
" I um, needed to think, im not in the best of places right now. I'm at that point where I just want to die" she begins to cry so Phil moves closer and embraces her into a hug, she cries onto his shoulder for a good 10 minutes.
Before he looks at her wrist, she looks up and sees him staring at them. She suns away in disparate need to get away.
He runs after her to find her with a pice of glass.
He grabs it and chucks it.
" why? Let me do it I'm worthless " she says trying to go and get it but he stops her.
" cut yourself go! But every time you do it to yourself, look me in the eye and do it as many times on me" she looked up in disbelief,
" I couldn't do that to you"
She says not taking her eyes of of his.
" Exactly, come on. We can go back to the party and I'll clean you up we can have a few drinks then I will walk you home" he says putting his arm around her shoulders, she nods and they walk back home.
