Sex or Love

Getting real

Austin's point of view
My heart is racing. Did she just say morning sickness. She can't be pregnant she just can't be I used protection every time.

Austin: are you telling me your having a baby?
Destiny: No I'm not telling you anything
Austin: " So what do you mean by morning sickness, are you just not feeling well?"
Destiny:  scared to tell him the truth the only thing that managed to come out was " No"
Austin: " Then what is it because usually when people use the term morning sickness that means they're pregnant. "
Destiny: Finally giving in I just blurted it out. " I am".
Austin: with a confused worried look on his face " You are what exactly?" 
Destiny: getting frustrated and emotional she yells "IM PREGNANT OKAY, You happy now!"
You could see the color fade from Austin face as the words pregnant left Destiny's mouth. He began to pace back and forth shaking his head from left to right, then right to left and back to right again when finally he spoke.
Austin: " Am I happy, did you just ask was I happy ? HELL NO I'm not happy".
Destiny: " I didn't ask for this. "
Austin: " And what I did, is it even mine?"
With the look of disgust on her face she replied " how dare you ask me that. I haven't even been with my own boyfriend because of you"
" Just could never be to sure. Anyway Didn't you guys plan to spend the night with each other"
" Yes he's my boyfriend my parents were gone and I didn't want to be in the house alone , so what. "
" So nothing happened?"
" No"
" That's not the impression I was under. "
Destiny's point of view
Not understanding why he cares so much about my relationship but he's starting to irritated me. Me and my boyfriend has nothing to do with him.
" Ok I don't know what you mean but why does it matter. My personal relationship doesn't concern you "
Not wanting to sound rude but knowing I'm not ready for a baby I had no choice but to ask. I took a deep breath and looked down at my shoes while playing with my fingernails  as the words slipped out my mouth so effortlessly
" So you gone keep it?"
Knowing the question was coming my mind began to race. I mean I've thought a lot about what I wanted to do since I found out but I never could come to a conclusion. I never thought in a million years I would be in this situation. I always told myself  when I had kids It would be with my husband and I would never have an abortion. Yet I find myself pregnant by my best friends boyfriend unmarried and heavily considering the option of killing my unborn child. I'm so young, I'm not even in high school yet. I can't afford a baby nor do I know what to do with one. Austin begins talking snapping me back to reality.
" I said are you keeping it?"
" I don't know, we're obviously not ready for a baby right now"
" Or ever" Austin whispers under his breathe.
Pretending as though I didn't hear his smart comment I just rolled my eyes and walk away.
"You really should leave" I said as my back face him.
" leave? We need to talk about this. "
" there's nothing to talk about you want me to get rid of it right so I will. "
So hurt to know that he never saw a future with me and just used me for sex because Ahyna wasn't ready hurt more than I expected. Yes I knew what I was getting myself into but I never knew it would end like this. I'm sitting here a month pregnant and I can tell she's the only thing he is thinking about right now. I feel so dumb right now. I'm not sure if it's the hormones or how I really feel but I don't want him or anyone else to think I got pregnant to make him be with me.