What Can I Say

Pete curled up next to patrick, closing his eyes and cuddling into his boyfriend.

¨I Love You" Pete said. Well signed it He couldn't exactly speak and the hand gesture, the thumb index and pinky up as the remaining fingers were bent down like bowling for an amazing performance of Love and caring, wasn't even in view for patrick to see. He was Fucking scared to tell him. No one believed him when he said things because they weren't really said.. So it obviously didn't really mean anything.. They think. He couldn't even move out of his parents house. He was afraid to. I guess you could say he was afraid of alot, which was kinda pathetic for a 22 year old.

Now this eighteen year old was in his life. He was pretty sure he was in love with this boy.. The barely legal boy... The boy fucked spoke for him.. Learned a language for him.. Patrick would understand him... but he might not find it as important as spoken word.. And besides that patrick was only eighteen.. He doesn't know what love is., not like pete does. Pete didn't wasn't fake teeny-bop love.. Nor did he want to scare patrick away.

¨Hey"Pete looked at patrick as the younger spoke.. Ẅhy don't you show me some of the lyrics you were talking about.. The ones that meant alot to you.. You were saying something about wanted me to see them.

Pete sat up and shook his head "I Can't.. i'm sorry.."he signed slowly.

¨Okay.. Just if you want to.. I'm here..."

¨I want to.. I Just can't¨ his hands moved a little faster this time.

¨I'm never going to shun you for speaking your mind,¨ Patrick signed this time instead of talking.

¨I can never speak it. I'll only be able to sign and that's not fair to you.¨

¨ I've never had a problem with your lack of speech¨

¨That doesn't mean you'd rather me sign. You know it would make this relationship easier if you weren't my voice.. If i could speak these words to you.¨

¨No. Like being silent when I'm with you. And I like speaking when you cannot. So just tell me what you want to say.¨

¨I Love You¨ He signed holding up his left hand only.