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Day 4

Today is Amilie's birthday, my brother took me shopping yesterday to get her a present. I got her a big tin of chocolates, cause who doesn't like chocolate am I right? I get up once again with my alarm blaring. I get ready and do all my chores I have to do and soon it's 8:10am and me and my brother have to walk to the bus stop, fun. I really hate this bus. But I have to catch it. It's either walk, ride or catch the bus, I'd rather catch the bus I'm to lazy to walk or ride. Before I know it I'm at school. Thank god. Oh wait, I don't like school anymore. Not recently anyway. I pretty much run off the god-forsaken death trap, I mean bus and up the hill into the school. First things first is I need to find Amilie. "Target located" I say to myself when I spot her standing with the girls. Great. Of course she's with them. I start to walk over to them and once they notice me I get the stink eye. Ouch. I honesty am dying to know what the fuck I did to upset them. I don't recall anything I did. I really hope it isn't me. Once I reach the girls I give Amilie a quick hug and her present and say hey to the other girls. No one responds. So I just say 'we'll, have a great day Am and I'll talk to you later' looking down at the ground a tear escaping from my eye and rolling down my cheek as I pretty much run up the stairs. I have no one right now. I'm all alone. I really feel like shit. The people who I thought we my home away from home no longer wish to be in my presence, it's as if I'm revolting to them. I just want this day to end. I want this life to end. It's only been like this for a few days with the girls and I'm breaking. The stuff at home isn't making it any better. I just want to escape. If I could I would leave right now, I don't care where to. It could be a new school or even a new town. I just don't want to be here. The bell rings and I start to walk to care class. I'm thinking about what could of happened. Cause I was with the girls on the weekend and they were all fine. I have no idea what went on. But I'm scared. I reach the class and hurl my bag at the port racks, not caring if I broke anything in my bag. I jut wanna go home. Please god make this day go fast.

Finally. Its home time. I guess god really did listen this time. Today went pretty fast. I'm so glad. I walk out of my fourth period class and put my stuff in my bag walking to the bus stop. My bus is the second run so I don't get picked up till 3:45, at least I get home later. I don't want to be at school or home right now. But I have to go to both. Finally after what seems like forever I'm home. I walk up the stairs and into the house making a B line for my bedroom, I don't want to deal with anyone's shit right now. I spend the whole afternoon in there and no one bothers be. I'm glad. They left me alone .... for now.